Chapter 41

As I drive on the way to the gym, I mull over Amilia and I’s conversation this morning. When I saw her again, I realized my little feelings for her disappeared. I used to have a crush on her because she’s cute and sweet. There’s just something about her that I was drawn to. That little had now become nothing.

I’m starting to regret indulging myself in a hopeless relationship– if that’s even a relationship to begin with. All we did was fuck. I let myself catch feelings for someone who doesn’t care about me at all. Never mind being dangerous, I could take that. The fact that she didn’t tell me that she actually has a fiance, that just hit the most painful spot for me.

Of all the fucking women, why do I have to fall for someone like her? Unreachable and taken.

Why can’t I have these deep irrevocable feelings for Ami instead? Clearly, she’s the better option. She’s better than her. We have been on the same wavelength until she came along, let me fall hard for her and ruined it all.

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