MIRACLE POV
~ONE WEEK LATER…
It’s been a long week.
Loneliness. Regret. Fear of losing control. Everything haunted me for the past days. Every day felt like a year and it seems like seven years have passed since I last did something productive or talked to someone properly. The breakfast a week ago was the last time I ever came across Lord Rickard or Olivia. They were in the same house but I refused to leave my room for such awkward interactions. We are all here tolerating each other for reasons of our own so I don’t think I should push my luck or make them reach the limit of their patience.
I stare at the endless forest through the window in my room. A sigh escapes my lips as I turn around and almost jump up in shock seeing Olivia sitting on my bed.
“ It’s time to go. ” She gives me a pointed look and announces.
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MIRACLE POVOlivia takes me to the Crescent Moon Pack and to my surprise, no pack member attacks me even when I walk by them. They do talk about me but no one actually comes onto me.I wonder why they are not saying or doing anything to me but I guess…it’s a good thing.“ Mira! ” Matthew calls out to me and I lift my head.He is standing at some distance. After seeing him, a smile lights up my lips and I find myself unconsciously running to him without caring about all the glances my former pack members are giving me.He smiles back as he watches me running toward him.“ Slow down before you face-plant yourself. ” He jokes when I near him, forgetting all about Olivia who is somewhere behind.I jump at Matthew, engulfing him in a hug. It’s good to see him again when I thought I had lost the privilege already.“ I mi
MIRACLE POVAfter Matthew leaves the room I decide to do what I haven’t done in a few days. I fall asleep, relieved that I am now safe and I don’t need to stay on guard to protect myself.I wake up again when someone shakes my arm and calls my name repeatedly. I blink my eyes open forcefully and look at the familiar face peering down at me.Sara. She was the Gamma’s daughter and my friend when I used to be a part of the pack but when I was thrown out, she didn’t even bat an eyelash.“ What happened? ” I rub my eyes, trying to wake up completely.“ Alpha sent me to bring you, Miracle. ” She informs me in a neutral tone and steps away from me.“ Is it something serious? ” I mumble to myself but Sara takes it as a question that I am asking from her so she answers. “ I don’t know. Why don’t you go and find out yourself because you are clearly blocking
MIRACLE POVHe looks surprised for a second when I call him Alpha. He asked so many times from me to call him Alpha instead of Cain in the past but I never did it. Today, I am calling him Alpha without him having to ask me to do it.“ What are you doing here? Your brother is about to send a search party to look for you. ” He blinks away the surprise from his eyes and asks me in a distant tone.He is making me feel like I am talking to him for the very first time in our lives and he doesn’t even know me.I unblock the mind link and instantly hear Matthew’s voice in my head.‘ Where are you, Mira? Alpha King is here and he was asking for you. We couldn’t find you anywhere. I was about to ask everyone to look for you but he said that he will find you himself. Did he find you yet? Are you alright? ’ Matthew bursts out, asking all sorts of question and making me realise yet another mistake that
MIRACLE POVI go back to the pack house and get surprised after finding out from Matthew that Alpha King has already left the pack. He really just came to listen to whatever I had to tell him.After having dinner with Matthew like I promised him earlier, I go back to my room and think about the interaction I had with Cain.He said he forgave me. He really did say it but did he mean it? I don’t know for sure but it seems like he really doesn’t want to have anything to do with me.Watching the moon from the window of my room, I wonder about only one thing now.What does the Moon Goddess has in store for me now?*****Night passes fairly fast and I find myself unable to fall asleep. Whenever I tried to sleep in the night, I got these horrible nightmares about violence that I simply gave up on sleeping in the night time at one point.Tired, I walk out of my room in the morning and end up colliding with
MIRACLE POVI stay by the lake for a few hours and then decide to head back when Matthew Mindlinks me to ask if I am doing okay.Amanda said that I can do whatever I want now and I will be successful and happy but this is my main problem…I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t feel like doing anything at all.This time I can’t even blame my curse for anything. It’s all me – Miracle Cullen who is trying to destroy the rest of her life.I sigh as I walk back inside the pack house and earn many side glances. They remain silent but I know if given a chance, they are going to hurt me a lot.Once again, I am forced to wonder why no one is calling me a traitor or doing anything against me. What’s wrong here? I can’t say for sure.“ Mira. ” Matthew calls out to me just as I am about to enter my room.I turn around to face him and freeze on my spot to see Xavier com
MIRACLE POVFor a moment I think I saw the corners of his lips curling up but the gesture was gone when I blinked once.I am seeing strange things now. He didn’t really smile right?“ It’s good to know. ” He sighs and rounds the table to go back to his spot.He took the news too lightly. Does he really not care anymore?“ Cain… ” I whisper his name unconsciously and instantly realize my mistake when he looks at me intensely.“ I mean Alpha… ” I correct myself, my heart beginning to beat faster.“ What did you promise Lord Rickard in return of helping me? ” I ask the question which has been bugging me for a long time now.“ It’s none of your business anymore Miracle. Like I said before, go live your own life now. ” Cain looks down from me and replies in a firm tone, shutting me up.I heave a heavy breath and turn a
MIRACLE POV“ I - I hurt someone, Cain and I almost hurt my brot - brother too. You were right. Please help me. ” I whisper in a scared tone.His hands stay caged in mine as he doesn’t pull away from me. This is surprising, but I will focus on this later.“ Please… ” I try again, receiving no reply from him whatsoever.He just watches me like he has seen me for the first time in his life. The usual neutral look is present in his eyes, but his silver grey orbs are not cold right now.“ Go back. ” He pulls his hands out of my own gradually and takes a step back to put some distance between us.I open my mouth to talk and plead again, but he speaks up before I get the chance. “ Go back right now. I don’t have that potion. Xavier will bring it from the new witch and I will send it to you later. ”A sigh esca
MIRACLE POV“ What potion?” A frown forms on Matthew’s forehead.I gulp before looking down at his arms. I should really tell him about this if I don't want others to get hurt.“ He gave me some potion which makes me crave blood and violence. It’s like I am turning into a psychopath due to this potion. I always end up wanting to hurt others in the worst way possible. I try to control it but the urge is too strong and it gets triggered every time I get angry or I see blood. Even if this potion in my blood is prevented from getting triggered, the nightmares which haunt me will do the work sooner or later. That’s why I couldn’t control myself earlier. I saw blood and then heard these whispers in my mind asking me to be the one drawing that blood and all…” I reveal my condition to Matthew in a single breath while my eyes stay fixed at the surface of the desk separating us.Silence f