ROZETA:"Stay with me, please!" I plead over the already lifeless body of Jax. I wasn't feeling the connection that I supposedly shared with him and it shattered my heart into many pieces.I scream my lungs out, my voice exuding pain. Endless tears flowed down my eyes as I breakdown on the ground. I didn't want to accept the truth but there was nothing I could do to change it.Jax is dead. He's dead. He was murdered and it happened right in front of my eyes.I was still in denial even though I should be admitting to myself that it has happened. My system was in contrast and even the whole of my being.The amount of rage that suddenly filled my entire being was out of this world. I couldn't explain it but I felt it all over. And I don't know when I let it take control of my entire state of mind.It felt different. My mind was like a flow of reality on its own when I was still in the real world. I cannot even begin to decipher what was going on with me but then it was all happening all
ROZETA:Pain. Pain. And more pain. That was what I felt as whatever I turned into left me.The aftermath was worse than the beginning. It felt like everything that I just went through was a phase of pain itself.I had to walk up to a tree to have a balance. My legs were weary from running back in that beastly form. It was at that time that I realized I didn't have my clothes on anymore. To say I can explain what happened to my clothes would be a lie.I wasn't practically worried about being nude out in the open. I was worried about knowing that I have just gone through a phase of being alone for probably a long time.The realization of the death it Jax dawned on me and it gave me complicated feelings. Instantly I was pushing myself forward to get to his body. I still had this straw of hope that he wasn't fully dead but then that was only going to be through a miracle.Eventually, I arrive at his body. It was in the same position I left it and seeing that nothing has changed got me wea
ROZETA:I try to scream but nothing comes out of my mouth. The act came as a result of a bad dream, forcing my eyes open from the slumber I fell into. Though I was sitting up in no time to realize I was not in the woods anymore.Asides from being in a room that I have no idea about, I was fully clothed. Not necessarily in full clothes because what I have on looks like a hospital robe. A bed sheet was also over my legs but I take it off as I get off the bed to sit on the edge.This has seemed to become a routine whenever I collapse somewhere. I always end up waking up in an unknown room with my body almost fully treated or being healed from whatever I went through.It has always been that way since my first encounter with Jax and it has always been him waking over me. But this time it can't be possible. He couldn't make it out of the woods with me.The thought of that ignited an aura of sadness in me. I was moved to tears already because I couldn't bear the thought of losing Jax. Despi
JAX:"How are you still alive?" she asks me as I lay her down on the bed.She looks all fragile that even the tone of her voice sounds forced. I try not to focus on that as I make her comfortable on the bed instead, my touch on her gentle."Don't worry about me, Rozeta," I say to her, putting over her the bedsheet to make her more comfortable."But I want to know," she insists. "You died in front of my eyes. Or am I dreaming?"My finger makes its way to her lips, hushing her in the process. "It's not a dream," I say solemnly. "Just sleep. We'll talk about this when you're awake,"I notice her eyes start to get drowsy and it was my cue to let her be. But she grabs my arm before I could put it to my side, holding on to my wrist tightly."Don't go... Jax..." she mutters. "Stay with me."I push her hand into mine, caressing it affectionately. I made sure my touch on her was too gentle to ensure that she feels okay.She falls asleep in no time while I watch her face. There was a scar on it
ROZETA:The only thing I could do now was sit and wait comfortably for her to wake up from her sleep. I expected her to be restless but she hasn't looked that way ever since I got into the room to check on her.Her hair was still a bit tattered and would surely need a bit of attention after she was up from there. Her facial expression did not really denote anything of importance but I could say that it exhibited enough calm.I watched as her chest heaved constantly in correlation with her breathing. It gave me a sense of calm to know that she wasn't all tensed up in her sleep. I don't know if I would be able to cope with seeing her in such after everything that has happened.She deserves a bit of rest. Enough rest away from the troubles she has been facing recently.I put my hand up to my chest after feeling pain around there. I didn't need to be told that the pain came from the sword driven through my chest. I shouldn't be feeling this way due to the number of days between the event
ROZETA:I found myself craving Jax's attention more than ever. It was like something I never knew I wanted but then it was now a part of my existence.Since the day I woke up and had a conversation with him, I realized just how much I needed him around. A part of me was telling me that I was acting this way out of guilt but I was convinced that it wasn't that. It was more than that. Perhaps I must have grown an affection for him.It sounds stupid that the man I should hate or even hated that much before could suddenly begin to have an effect on me like this. The time around him has grown on me and it was already messing my mind up in some way.He hasn't seemed to oppose of my sudden clinginess yet and I'm glad he hasn't because I won't be able to deal with the after feeling that comes with being told off.At the moment I have my head resting on his shoulder as we both sat outside the cottage given to us by the pack to stay in until Beta Zeke comes back for us.We were supposedly enjoy
ROZETA:His sudden change in behavior pushes me to reverse my attitude toward him. I was boiling about the fact that he pulled for yet the second time during an intimate session with me. However, without getting anything from him yet, I knew already that his change of act was not directed at me."What's not right?" I ask, trying not to sound as annoyed as I portray to be.He looks around for a while before saying to me, "I can't feel a connection with my pack anymore."That sounded like something that would call for alarm. It didn't just feel like an elaborate situation, it was something that needed to be treated with urgency."Is it like damaged or something?" This time I was genuine with my words. I have to be in line with him if I need to understand his sudden demeanor.I watch as he gets lost in thought for a long time. Even though I wasn't fully embedded in the ways of the wolves, I knew that he wasn't standing there for standing's sake.Definitely, he was still trying to get in
JAX:Rozeta wasn't the only one tensed. I was too. The only difference between both of us at the moment is that I was hiding it while she wasn't.She made it clear all through as I held her hand and pulled her through the woods of the pack harboring us. She called it a bad idea that we were even attempting to exit the pack but I told her that she had nothing to worry about because I already ransacked through the area. But did that work? Definitely not.The only hope I have right now is that we make it out through the woods with fewer complaints than what we started with. To be honest, I won't be surprised if we end up encountering any of this pack's warriors. It would be the height of it but I can't rule that out."This is such a bad idea," she laments for the umpteenth time. To be honest, I was getting tired of it.I ignore her. I have tried my best to convince her so saying anything this time around would be me patronizing her. Would she want me to just leave her in the pack? Or wou