Mum died of leukemia when I was 5 years old. That was when my life took a huge turn. I didn't know if it was a sad turn or a happy one. I didn't even know what is meant by death at that age.
I just know that mum was gone.....and she's never going to come back. The last time I saw her smile was when on the hospital bed when her long silky hair got shaved. It was a stupid age that I asked her what was the reason for it.
At her funeral, I just sat on the ground away from everyone crying in silence. I just know that I felt a hand as small as mine on my shoulder. I looked up to that person lifting my head and that's when I saw a small boy, so fair and as same as my age. Standing in front beside me.
"It's okkay, don't cry." He said in his small baby tone and handed over me a tissue."Thank you," I replied after clearing my hoarse voice from crying."Is that your mum?" He asked while pointing his tiny index finger towards mum's grave.I got ready for school at home. I was excited to go to school. "You ready, son?" Dad shouted from downstairs. "Coming," I replied and went downstairs to see dad. Dad inhaled deeply and kneeled in front of me. "It's your first day. I'm sorry I can't drop you. You will be okkay on your own right?" Dad asked with a small smile. "Yes," I replied with a big smile. "Good, let's go," Dad said while standing up. Dad drove us to Hairrosn's house and I met Ma'am and Adam in the living room. "Adam," I said while going towards him. "Martin, you shouldn't address young master by his name," Dad said with a serious tone. "Ron, don't be serious on the little one. I asked him to call Adam by name, he was addressing Adam as young master till yesterday. They are of the same age, let them be friends." Ma'am said with a smile. "Okkay, madam," Dad replied with a bow. "So you both ready
"Well...." Master paused. I was scared to hell with his words and tone. I shouldn't have called Ma'am as 'Mum', master must be angry. "Can you call me dad too?" He said after a few seconds of silence. "What?" It wasn't me who said that. It was mum. "What?. Honey, he calls you mum and me master. It's unfair. Martin calls me Dad ." Master said with a soft smile. "You scared the child, Mathew," Mum said as she came towards us. "Oh, I'm sorry. It's my tone, I can't change it." Master replied while shrugging his shoulders. "Martin. Call me 'dad'." Master asked me. I still kept my face down, it really feels different and I'm really scared to call master a dad. "Dear, don't put pressure on the poor kid. He's scared, see." Mum said as she grabbed me in her arms. "Oh, it's fine. Just call me dad whenever you feel like it. Okkay?" Master said, to which I replied with a head nod.
It was our first day of high school and mum told us the same thing 'Don't beat others together'. At least in middle school, that fight happened in our second year but in high school, it was in the first few months. When we came home, we both didn't bleed much but yes there were signs that we got into a fight. "What is it this time?" Mum asked. Even she got used to our fights. "A guy threatened Martin saying he will beat him if Martin didn't do his homework," Adam explained. Yeah, that part was right but he didn't tell mum the whole thing. I rejected doing his homework and he caught me by the collar and was about to punch when Adam punched him and.....that's how the fight broke out. "I declined it. But he didn't stop and tried to beat and..." Mum stopped me from completing a sentence and spoke first. "And that's how the fight broke out and you two didn't start it. Is that what you are gonna say?" Mum asked while folding her hand
From then on everything started getting...weird and hard. It started acting strangely in front of him and the moment we were alone...I can't control my thoughts of being near him and holding him in my arms. I didn't know if this love is a brotherly one or the lover one.....maybe the second one more. Everything he comes close to me, I find changes in me. My body starts reacting...my mind feels unusually active...making all my senses work more. My eyes start working looking at every inch of his face....my nose only smells his scent that tempts me into losing control.....my ears love to listen to his voice....more when he calls my name....my lips want to taste his lips, to know if he feels as sweet as he acts. My skin reacts to every touch he makes and the tingling sensation I get every time his breath touches my body...They make it really hard to control my feelings and my mind always tells me to give up and lose in him. There were times when I almost l
My brain stopped interpreting things. I can't believe what my ears heard. "I broke up with Claire." He said and let out a sigh. "You broke up with her?" I asked just to get a double confirmation. "Yes. I mean, it's not like she and I were in any relationship or something. Even it's a fling I stopped it." He said while shrugging his shoulders. "Why?" I asked in a quiet tone. I tried hard to control the smile my lips were about to unleash. I was happy that he let go of his fling and single again but at some part, I still feel sad that he's single again and there's no way he will be with me. Adam moved aside and sat beside me. I got up from bed and sat on it. "I just gave a thought to what you said." He replied. "Will you spill it?. I'm not getting anything from your half words." I said with a bit impatient tone. You don't know how happy one becomes when the person you have one side love from gets s
Everything was going good and even after going to Australia Adam didn't have any girlfriend saying it was only a fling, even though our misconceptions are cleared, I still kept my flirting behavior. It made me not feel lonely since Adam was away. But one day he called like usual to say the weirdest thing. "You have called after a long time," I said as soon as I answered the call. "Yeah, I have been busy with work, lately." He sounded exhausted. "You sound tired. Why don't you take a rest?. We can talk after you get free." I replied. His health would get disturbed if he does these acts. There's a reason why I and mum shouted at him when he wanted to take both Business Administration and Photography courses in University. "I'm fine. Not much tired. Moreover, it's almost been a month since I spoke to you." He said with a soft tone. "You know it's crime to talk in such a soft tone if you know that the other person has f
The next morning, I woke up and went downstairs. I met mum at the dining table. "Morning, Martin." Mum greeted with her usual warm smile. "Morning, mum." I greeted back and sat at one of the chairs at the dining table. "I made your favorite breakfast," Mum said with a big smile. "Thanks, mum. You do spoil me too much." I said as I started eating. "Of course, a mum would spoil her child, in a good way," Mum said with a smile and I let out a small chuckle in reply. "Did you get a call from Adam, yesterday?" Mum asked after a few minutes of silence. "Yeah." I nodded my head in reply. "And that he won't come home for a week?" Mum added. "Come on, mum. It's just a week. He promised to come back on his birthday." I said trying to comfort her. "He also promised to come back as soon as he gets graduated," Mum added and hung her head down. "Mum, I want to see hi
"I'm sorry, dear. Your heart must be devastated." Mum said with a comforting tone. "It was. But I'm happy, that he loves me as a brother. I can't ask for more." I replied with a weak smile. "Then why do I see the pain, dear?. You know you can cry right?" Mum said while placing one of her hands on my shoulder for comfort. I couldn't hold back my tears anymore and I burst one. I started crying out all the pain I have been holding for the past years. "I love him, mum. I love him so much." I said in between my sobs. "I understand. We can only give love but can never ask for it. First love's always hard to forget but my son's strong, he will come over it." She comforted me. I cried for some time and stopped crying after a few minutes. "Feeling better?" Mum asked. "A bit yes. It feels like a part of weight has been lifted off from my chest." I replied in a low tone. "See. You shouldn't hold bac