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For the past 7 days, I've tried to enjoy this short filled happiness but I can't because I'm scared of what will happen when we go back to Italy and everything will go back to the way it has always been.

I had dreaded getting back on the plane ( oh did I mention that Amber has his private airplane? you have no idea, I even heard he has a helicopter) to Italy because all the fun will die down and Amber will go back to that same old person he had always been.

But like.. it's been 2 days now and like... everything is still the same way.

He's sweet, and he'd pick me up from the studio twice and he's being normal and nice like...I don't know why I didn't meet this part of his earlier.

But like I'm just scared that we're gonna fall off again and something horrible is going to happen.

And I feel like this time it's me that's going to fuck up.

So this is Me walking bare feet to his office by 9pm , I knocked...I didn't wait for a response..I opened.

He seemed busy whatsoever yeah but we had to