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LEXY

A MONTH LATER...

It's been the usual routine lately... wake up, eat, watch movies, sleep, eat again, sleep, wake up, watch movies, eat again, sleep on and on and on.

Amber is busy with his degree, the other boys have lives to live, Sam has work to do.. I'm basically alone.

I can't get a job because my life is in one hell of a mess, I can't go out and do normal things without Amber or one of his boys going with me, I can't go back to my normal life.

I miss painting, I miss everything about it, but I can't do that. I lost inspiration about everything the very moment I found everything I worked for in ashes.

I hated paint brushes and pencils or anything that reminded me of that day.

I've been distant lately, I know it's affecting Amber but I can't just help it.

I'm not happy, at all.

Things aren't going the way I wanted... everything seems to be going perfectly well until that day.

I couldn't even cry, I couldn't even shed a tear because I was too shocked to even think.

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