Chapter 36

How could I desire him to caress me this badly? To hold me and tell me ‘it’s okay’. What was happening to me?

Shifting back, I looked down at my laps, a hint of hesitation began to take over me. When he had supported me this much then he deserved to know why I was this agonized.

“Hey, you okay? Is there something… you want to speak?”

There were countless things I wanted to say but it was neither time nor the moment for it. In fact what could I possibly say when you are here already?

“Uh..”

I should tell him why I was feeling this way, that I was in a bad need of support. I never told Jared about it but I didn’t know why, my heart was convinced to share my regret with him.

“You must be thinking when I was mentally prepared for Father's death then why I was so devastated, right?”

“I was but I thought it wouldn’t be the right time to ask.” He agreed, plopping on his one elbow, placing his attention to me.

“I told you the one with a heavy heart refuses to come back. See, he didn’t.” I ch