96. I think I'm In Love

Ella’s POV

Why do I have this impression? Why does it feel like such a punch to the gut when I think about the fact that Abby is back? I ought to be content with them because they are all my friends, despite the fact that my feelings for Fabian have become increasingly attached. Even negative thoughts about it are impossible for me to come up with. The fact that Abby has returned makes me feel insecure.

I got on the bus and smiled at Fabian, who was still staring at me outside. I wanted to show him that I was glad for him, but little did he know that my heart was fucking hurting deep inside.

I felt terrible.

Because of what took place last night, I can't help but wonder if Fabian and I are more than simply friends, and I've recently discovered that this assumption was an unfortunate misconception. It wasn't intentional on Fabian's part to do that; I was just a convenient distraction for him when he was lonely.

I took a few deep breaths and went home, where I saw my grandmother tendi