ALEJANDRA.Forrest is quiet as we head back to the house. In fact, he hasn’t even looked at me since we left Margot’s office. I think he’s a little mad that I asked Margot to teach me how to block my thoughts.Blocking my thoughts is surprisingly easy and yet complicated at the same time. I think it’s easier for the guys because they’ve known their whole lives how to block their thoughts. It’s muscle memory for them. For me, I have to actually think about physically blocking my thoughts.Imagine a wall, Margot had told me.A wall?That’s easy.The hard part is keeping the wall up. The second I’m distracted the wall moves. I don’t know if that’s normal, but it’s what happens to me.As soon as we get back to the house, Forrest heads upstairs to his room. I watch his retreating form, wondering if I should say something to him.“What’s wrong with Forrest?” I ask Desmond, who is standing closest to me.Desmond simply shrugs.Boys.I sigh and decide to just ask him myself. I walk
DESMOND.I can smell Alejandra’s desire.We all can.It’s all I can do to sit on the couch and not force myself to go upstairs and get involved in whatever Alejandra and Forrest are doing.Kissing.They’re just kissing.But Alejandra wants more.Everything inside of me screams that I should be jealous about what is happening upstairs, but I’m not. Even my wolf is calm. He’s fine with what’s happening.This is new for all of us. Sharing a mate isn’t what any of us expected. Still, I don’t regret this. In fact, I like that I share a mate. I like that there are three other guys here to protect her aside from me. And the fact that I’m sharing a mate with my three best friends is the best part.“How did they go from fighting to that?” Puma asks as he sits on the couch beside me. He looks amused. “Do you think Alejandra would be up for me joining?”I laugh, shaking my head. “They’re not completing their mate bond.”“I know. I still want to join.”Puma and I are the only ones who
ALEJANDRA.I love the feeling of waking up on Saturday morning and knowing that I don’t have to go to school. I know I shouldn’t feel this way about Shifter Academy—the school is important to the guys. I should learn to like it. But right now, I’m having a very hard time, so I’m glad that it’s Saturday and I don’t have to worry about going there today.I need to talk to Puma. After what happened last night, I feel kind of bad. Even though it was his turn to stay in my room, he didn’t come in. Phoenix and Desmond stayed with me and both are still asleep next to me. I carefully climb out of bed. Usually I wake them, but I manage to get up successfully. I grab a dress from my closet and go to my bathroom to take a shower and get ready for the day.I have no idea what we’re doing today, but I’m hoping we will go to the beach at some point. Back home, Zaire, Katherine, and I went to the beach every single weekend. Not just to hang out, sometimes we’d go there and do our homework. Someth
ALEJANDRA.Alpha Romano went home last night, which I’m glad for. I just… I feel like I’m a disappointment to him and to the entire pack. I’m the future luna… the future queen… whatever I am… but I’m not strong. I can’t even use whatever powers I have if I need them. They just come randomly and I know he’s disappointed in me, how can he not be? I’m sure he hates that his son is stuck with such a dud of a mate.I make sure to keep my wall up while I think those kind of things. The last thing I want is for Forrest to know how I feel. I know he hates it when I block my thoughts, but how can I tell him how I feel?Gah… I’m so lame. I should have more confidence in myself.“You should.” Forrest rolls over and looks at me.My heart races because he scared me.“How much of that did you hear?” I ask.“Everything.” He sighs, shaking his head. “You know, when we’re touching, your block thing doesn’t work. Just like I can’t block you out when we’re touching.”“Yeah, but your thoughts are
ALEJANDRA.I went to the pack doctor and I was so glad she was female.The doctor… she didn’t seem at all worried about the fact that I felt super awkward. She just did her job and actually made me feel comfortable. She even made Hannah wait outside during the exam, which I was grateful for.After everything is over, the doctor gives me a shot that will stop me from getting pregnant for the next four weeks, but it’s very important to come every four weeks. Apparently shifters burn off birth control faster than a human, which is a little frightening.Even though I know I’m not ready to complete my mate bond with the guys just yet, I still want to be prepared when the time comes. If I’m being honest, I don’t think I’ll want to wait too much longer. My guys are too important to me and I can’t deny the love I feel for them.When Hannah drops me off at home a few hours after we left that morning, she doesn’t come in. I suspect she wants to give me time to talk to the guys. It’s probab
ALEJANDRA.When I wake up on Sunday morning, Puma is lying beside me with an arm thrown over my stomach. It’s just the two of us—Forrest, I’m guessing, already got up. I inch over, and grab my phone from the nightstand. I’m not ready to get up yet, but I also don’t want to go back to sleep. When I scoot closer to Puma, he moves his hand. Right on top of my boob.Well…He’s still asleep. I don’t think he meant to grab my boob, so I can’t be mad. As I’m trying to decide how I feel about his hand being there, my phone vibrates, distracting me.It’s a text from Dahlia.I unlock my phone to see the text and realize it’s a picture of Adeline.Adeline is wearing the onesie that I got special made for her. It’s says ‘Aunt Alejandra is my favorite.’ She’s also wearing a pink pink bow that covers her mostly bald head and her eyes are so blue.She’s beautiful.I begin to cry because I realize what I am missing out on right now. I should be there, holding Adeline. I should be helping chan
ALEJANDRA.On Tuesday, instead of going to class I am called to the office. The guys go with me and the teacher telling me I’m wanted in the office doesn’t even bat an eye this time. I imagine Margot knows by now that the guys aren’t leaving me. It doesn’t matter who they have to fight. I love them for it even if I’m sure I’d be fine walking to her office on my own.My heart leaps when I see who is waiting for me in Margot’s office.Margot is sitting in her chair, but she stands when I arrive. And on the other side of her desk, with his back turned toward me, is my grandfather.When I asked Margot to see if he would come talk to me, I thought I would get some kind of warning. I didn’t think he’d just show up. But I’m glad he’s here. I want to talk to him. I think he has answers that I need.Robert Westwood looks at me, but he doesn’t make a move toward me.“Hello, Alejandra.” His voice sounds friendly enough and his smile is inviting, but his body language says something differe
ALEJANDRA.I’m feeling a little down after meeting with Robert, but I try not to let what he said get to me. It’s hard not to take what he said personally, but I know he only said what he did out of his own pain. He’s hurting over the death of my mom. Instead of letting people in, he pushes them away.So… I put all thoughts of him aside. It’s not worth dominating my thoughts or ruining my mood. Instead, I focus on all the good things. Like my mates. Phoenix sits on one side of me during class and Desmond on the other. Puma looks back at me and grins, like he knows I’m thinking about him—which he probably does—and Forrest plays with my hair at my back. It’s impossible to be sad around my mates, which is probably exactly what they want.They distract me in the best possible way.The other kids at school are acting weird today, though. They’re all staring at me and I can hear them whisper things. Even in class when we’re supposed to be doing our work, they’re talking about me. And ei