Chapter Forty Three
Time passed and I didn’t realize until then how much I had missed them. I wouldn’t even say I knew them that well, but I did, genuinely miss them. It was a little awkward though, me and Toby weren't really talking so the guys tried their best to include me in their conversations.
It was getting late, at this point, I wouldn’t even get 5 hours of sleep in by the time I got home, washed, into bed and then having to get up again when my alarm went off.
I checked my phone, Not wanting to say anything to Toby. I had crashed his night, I wasn’t going to ruin it by ending it early because I wanted to go home.
‘Are you ready to go?’ Toby leaned over and asked quietly. I just smiled at him.
Chapter Forty Four** A Few Weeks Later **As predicted, I hadn’t seen Toby outside of school still. I had seen the guys though. We met up for a coffee and lunch, minus Toby of course and it was nice having a catch up with them, but they had gone home now.I knew he was still trying to be respectful and give me the ‘’space’’ I had asked for, but... I didn’t want space anymore. I just wanted him.I made sure I was at every lesson he taught, on time for every homeroom. Make sure to pay attention and do well. Literally, anything I could think of to get his attention. I guess I can’t really hold anything against him. There is only so much attention he can give me at work, but... He hadn’t even at
Chapter Forty FiveBy the time I got home, I had a bunch of messages from my friends, asking if I was ok and why I hadn’t come back to class. I had a message from Raven too, asking If I wanted to join everyone for dinner tonight, ‘’Her treat’’. I just replied with a simple ‘’no thanks’’ and turned my phone off again.If I didn’t, they would just keep texting.Walking into the house, it was empty. Mum and dad were still at work. I just went into the kitchen and grabbed a can of Coca Cola from the fridge before heading up to my room. I dumped my bag on the floor and slammed the door shut with my foot as I walked through.I took my shoes off and got on my bed, laying down and closed my eyes.
Chapter Forty SixThe week seemed to fly by within a blink of an eye. I hadn’t seen Toby outside of school, however, we had been texting pretty regularly, even a few times within school hours, but it never really went further than that. There was a little flirting but really, it was almost like I was getting to know him again, falling for him again, and honestly... I wanted him back, but he hadn’t really said anything to the contrary and while there was a little bit of flirting… he would promptly change the subject.…but it was clear there was still a deep connection there.My parents were going to invite Toby themselves, but I told them I’d do it. In all fairness, I had no idea why they were even having a BBQ. They hated them, the food took forever to cook, the weather no
Chapter Forty SevenThe day of the BBQ came and as expected, I was far from excited… or happy about it. I couldn’t exactly miss it. It was at my house and my parents would kill me if I bailed. I had told my parents I was fine with the fact they wanted Toby here so… I couldn’t exactly change my mind now, could I?I had decided to temporarily blocked Toby’s number after the very awkward and embarrassing incident. I didn’t really have anything to say to him and I didn’t want to hear anything he had to say to me… Not right now at least.Just when everything was starting to get better, it went to shit again. Even though he’s dead. Jason is still ruining my life. All this is his fault. My fears, my need for therapy, my PTSD... My trou
Chapter Forty EightWhen i went down, I said my hello’s and gave my hugs to the guys and then grabbed a can of Pepsi and went to sit down by the pool. The weather was actually surprisingly nice and warm, so I took my shoes off and sat with my feet in the water. If the weather stays nice, I’d go for a swim later on this evening, when everyone has left.No one came over and bugged me, they just left me alone, which I was really glad about. I didn’t want to be rude and ignorant, but I also didn’t want to fake being happy when I clearly wasn’t.I stayed where I was until dad announced the food wouldn't be too long. I reluctantly decided to go and join everyone and wouldn’t you know it, conveniently, the only free seat available was the one right next to Toby. Sitting
Chapter Forty NineThe night continued and eventually, at about 10 o'clock, my parents went inside to settle down and get ready for bed, but me and the guys stayed outside. My parents said they could stay over, I mean, we had enough room for them all. As soon as my parents were gone though, I instantly felt a bit more comfortable. Sure, I had nothing against my parents being around, it was just better when they weren’t. I had a beer... And then two, and soon enough, I started feeling a bit more whimsical.As the night got later though, We headed inside the house so we didn’t disturb any of the neighbours. I closed the lounge doors so that we also wouldn’t disturb my parents, although they were both such deep sleepers that I doubted that would have been a problem.Ryder suggested o
Chapter Fifty** A few days later **I was looking at myself in the mirror, trying to convince myself that I looked good. I was wearing a black strapless dress, a grey cardigan and some Wedge-heeled shoes. I was getting ready for my date with Toby but I was so nervous. I don’t know why, I mean, this wasn’t our first date or anything but it was the first date we had had in a very long time.My parents knew we were going out together tonight, of course. It made things slightly easier, not having to lie. It wasn’t like I flaunted it, especially not in front of dad, but mum had asked me pretty much every day leading up to now what I was planning on wearing tonight.I ha
Chapter Fifty OneAfter pouring a second glass of wine, it was clear that I was either getting a taxi home or staying the night. Both of which I was fine with, but of course, the latter was what I was hoping for. I had a little sip before placing the glass back down and scooting closer to Toby. He placed his hand on my knee and squeezed it. I rested my hand on his cheek and pulled his face closer to mine, planting a soft loving kiss on his lips…..It escalated from there and before I knew it, I was lying under him and he was taking his shirt off. I wrapped my legs around his waist and his hand slid up my naked thigh, getting higher and higher.Good job I wore a dress.As his hand got closer to their destination, He stopped and pulled away