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Mila’s POV “We’re here” he whispered softly in my ear. I was lost in my own little world. A world I thought I would never get to live inside or experience. A world so perfect, so magical, That world had only one person in it that made it so extraordinary, my mate Ryan. I still can’t believe I have a mate I can confidently call mine now. It will probably take some time to truly believe he’s real. The night started beyond painful for me. From my excruciating, failed attempt at shifting, it made me feel so weak, so vulnerable in front of him. It made me feel inadequate and undeserving to be his mate. A beta’s mate. But none of that mattered to him, because he wanted me in any condition he can have me. He saw past my darkness and past my weaknesses. He made me open up to him when I thought I can never be open in front of even myself. He bared his neck for me and asked to be marked by me with so much confidence, it left no more doubt in my head that he was being kind with me out of
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Alec’s POV The girl changed a hundred and eighty degrees since the night I made that deal with her and she wasn’t able to fulfill it. My plan back fired into a total disaster. And I didn’t even understand why or how things went more wrong than before with her. Something happened that night, something that triggered so much pain inside her, and instead of falling apart she chose something a lot more dangerous to do to avoid dealing with what happened in a healthier manner. She became numb. Completely numb and indifferent. She chose not to feel anything at all instead of letting all her struggles and emotions burst out into the open. She stopped talking to me altogether. No matter what I say or ask, she wouldn’t say a damn word. I never thought I’d miss her rude, smart mouth, and hurtful words but I’d take them over this silence every time because this is driving me more crazy than her previous childish banter and cryptic words. I tried provoking her into opening her mouth and th
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Alec’s POVI gritted my teeth in frustration when she remained silent and went back to staring into space.Her tears continued to flow down though and it was the only indication that what I showed her did have some major effect on breaking away at her numbness.I moved in front of her and held her chin to make her stare at me.“You wanted to make sure she was fine from day one and I just showed you that she is way beyond fine. Why are you crying?” I asked in a low voice as I stared into her anguished blue eyes.She sniffled a couple of times, holding her sob inside her so she doesn’t break down in front of me.My grip on her chin softened as I released a tired sigh.I cupped her face with both hands and said softly “I can’t keep doing this anymore. I’m tired of this game, and apparently so are you. Just talk to me, I will listen to you I promise”Her eyes turned from anguished to
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Alec’s POVIt was almost three in the morning and the weather was biting cold, but she needed the fresh air now more than ever.I thanked Ryan heartily in my head for coming up with the idea of the patio because if it wasn’t for the fire pit he built there, I wouldn’t have been able to take her outside in this atmosphere.I climbed on the platform, hit the lights hanging on the railings and started the fire as high as it could go before going back inside into the main closet by the front door.I put on a heavy winter jacket and took another one for her, in addition to winter shoes and headed back to where I left her.Thankfully I found her still on the chair and still breathing like I told her to. Her lips were no longer blue and some color started to return back to her face.She was lost in her head, staring absently at the window I opened for her as I knelt down and put on her shoes before I wrapped the jacket around her
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Andrea’s POVI winced when my hands fisted automatically at the mention of my latest nightmare. The most horrible, scary, and thank goddess not real nightmare.The nightmare that finally broke me, drove me crazy to the extent that I begged Alec to be whatever he wanted me to be, to give him everything he wanted to know from me just so that it wouldn’t turn real.“Don’t, you’re hurting yourself! Let go please….Andrea” he said soothingly, trying to make me open my palms and release my tight hold so that I wouldn’t bleed further.I couldn’t contain my shudder this time as it escaped me at the mention of my name from his lips. Something about the way it comes out of him makes me feel a lot of goosebumps. And I can’t even admit that those goosebumps were so terrible to be felt. That nightmare messed with my head completely but I had no more power left in me to fight this destiny anymore. To fight the
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Andrea’s POV “Shhh, don’t think about that anymore. What’s done is done Andrea. Saying ‘if’ will not change anything. We need to get past what happened together, we can’t be stuck in the past forever” he said fiercely, wiping away my tears with his thumbs softly while talking to me. I leaned into his touches, seeking comfort in them, a relief from the constant sea of pain I keep drowning in. I had my eyes closed, so I didn’t expect what he did next when he leaned closer and printed a warm kiss on my forehead. My eyes opened in surprise and I saw him looking at me warmly “Don’t be afraid of anything or anyone Andrea. I’m willing to put the past behind me. What you did, why you did it, you don’t have to tell me about those if you don’t want to. Just be with me, whatever pain I caused you in the past, forgive it. Let’s start fresh together. Give each other a real chance to get to know each other without the shadow of our pasts lingering behind us” “I’m just so… tired Alec. I’m tired
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Andrea’s POVAdrian and Alec looked identical in their appearances that anyone who doesn’t actually know them can mistake them for the other and call them twins despite the two year gap between them.Of course now they can instantly be distinguished because Adrian keeps his hair to a shoulder length while Alec’s hair is short on the sides with longer strands in the middle.But ten years ago, they looked exactly the same. Somehow though, eight year old me was always able to pick out Alec even if they were together.I don’t know why, but it was always Alec that caught my attention and sent my heart racing in childish love every time I saw him around the pack house.It was always Alec that I would stalk around and watch from afar.Adrian never sparked any interest inside me. I never paid him any attention, and never bothered to know anything about him or about his personality.I wonder now how and why I felt this connection to Alec even though there was no way to tell we were mates back
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Andrea’s POVI don’t know why now, but I just got a strong feeling from the bond telling me he was so angry. I didn’t know why I couldn’t get a glimpse of his feelings before when I was wondering where he disappeared into. It was almost like he didn’t just shut off his mind link, but he also shut off the bond between us if that was even possible. Even though this was supposed to be a magic free zone for me and him because of the magic spell surrounding this territory, I could still feel his immense anger telling me he was feeling a lot of it if it could reach me despite the magic.The moment he appeared through the dim corridor, a flood of relief ran through me. Just the mere sight of him made me feel instantly safe. But still, there was a small part that wasn’t entirely relieved because it didn’t know why he left me alone and disappeared without telling anyone anything. A small part was still afraid that he will break his promises to me for some reason.“Where were you? And why weren
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