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Kacie I hear what he’s saying but somehow since the sex in the bathroom. to this moment right now, my hardened heart built a wall around itself. I can’t bring myself to tell him I know that he doesn’t hate me. The words won’t form to tell him that I know he doesn’t look at me any differently now that we know I’m a witch. Is it my own self loathing that’s holding me back? Is it because I can’t accept this change about myself? There has been so many changes, Jake and Viktor have been my rock. They’ve been my one constant in this storm called life. My insecurities and Jake’s insecurities are holding us back and pulling us in the opposite direction of the other. Why can’t I just tell him that he isn’t just my Beta? Shouldn’t he already know that he’s more than a ranked member by now? Shouldn’t he already feel secured in his spot in this relationship? It only makes me angrier. “You’re a good fuck, Jake, but if I have to console you 24/7 and reassure you of your position in my life, will y
KacieYou are overthinking all of this, Kacie.I don’t want to hear it.You are. You’re letting your anger rule you. You know you’re in the wrong here. You could have fixed this, you could have stopped it before it escalated, but you didn’t!Shut up, Athena.Why are you being SO stubborn? You wouldn’t budge the entire time you were talking to Jake. You said some really mean things to him. Why don’t you tell me what’s going on, Kacie?I don’t know what you’re talking about. I stood my ground, Ath.Is that what you did? Because from where I’m standing, you were bullying him. Was it something Clara said? Was it…What?Was it because of what we saw?What did we see, Ath?Whatever it was we saw between Clara and Jake at the club.…Are you jealous?No!You’re jealous.I’m not jealous. Jake is… Jake is mine.Are you sure?Yes.Are you? Because the way you just treated him wasn’t like someone you think of as yours. You treated him like a… what do they call it these days? A side piece. …So I
Kacie This is not what I was expecting. I woke up in a cold bed and got ready this morning. When I came down to the field to train, Clara was nowhere to be found. I heard footsteps behind me and turned to find Jade. Her blonde hair was pulled back in a tight low bun and her violet eyes were eery as she walked towards me. She was wearing cargo pants and a black tank top that she paired with black combat boots. The bangles on her wrists and arms glinted brightly under the sun. She came to a stop five feet away from me. Jade crossed her arms and her gaze trailed down my body before resting on my face. “Good morning, Jade. Where’s Clara?” I asked looking past her hoping to find Clara somewhere. Anywhere. Jade roller her eyes, like actually rolled her eyes. I could already feel my patience being tested. Luckily, I had something to eat otherwise I would have snapped at her. Her violet eyes return from their visit to the back of her head. The sass came off of this girl in waves and I am o
Kacie Before I could say anything to Jade the ground beneath me started to separate even more. I grabbed a handful of grass with my right hand and pulled myself up. I reached forward with my left hand and dug my nails into the ground. I hardened my core as I tried to pull myself onto solid ground before I fell into an abyss I didn’t want to look down at. The last thing I wanted to do was look down at what lay at the bottom of the split earth. Even though my brain kept screaming for me to look I focused on pulling myself up. When I was sure I wouldn’t fall to my death I got to my feet and moved as far away from the cracks as possible. I stared at Jade incredulously. She was muttering under her breath but I wasn’t paying attention to that. The words didn’t make sense anyway. I couldn’t believe that this was her gift. She was like Toph from The Last Air bender. Not only was I surprised but I was in awe of her. “Can you make rocks fly?” I asked. The chanting stopped as she looked at me.
Kacie I gasped as ice cold water hit my face and washed down body. My eyes flew open and the shock of it had me questioning where I was and what was happening. I pulled myself up into a sitting position, I gasped out in pain. Every breath I took was haggard and caused a sharp stabbing sensation in my chest and stomach. My feet felt light and my head heavy. My clothes were wet and clung to my body. My hands squished in the dirt turned mud beneath me. I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion as I tried to figure out what was going on. I struggled as I tried to remember something, anything. Flashes of training with Jade, the earth cracking open, and the mud monster flit through my mind. The mud monster. It was all coming to me now. I had been fighting Jade’s mud monster and I flinch as I remember the punches to my gut. It wasn’t looking good but in the end I remember feeling victorious. Gently, I pushed on my sensitive skin. I was definitely bruised and was ninety-eight percent certain I h
KacieNow that I was back in the packhouse I couldn’t stop the thoughts that I’d pushed away all day. My feet grew heavier as I headed toward my room. I hadn’t seen or heard from Viktor since he left last night. The same goes for Jake. Something dark was eating at me and I was helpless to the endless possibilities of where he could have gone or where he could be. They must have gone to work because nothing was out of place. It was like any other day and wasn’t at the same time. My guys weren’t here. I was alone. They weren’t here with me.Who is responsible for that?I ignored Athena’s words. She wasn’t being harsh but I didn’t want to hear it. Anger bloomed and began to fester again as I thought of Viktor and Jake. I had been upset yesterday but them being together again without me didn’t go unnoticed. They were supposed to link or tell me somehow. They promised not to leave me out again and that’s just what they did.I swallowed down the emotion that started to bubble up. I wasn’t g
KacieI stood in all of my nakedness in front of the bathroom door. My mind flashed back to the towel I had thrown into the hamper. I wasn’t shy and I wasn’t ashamed to be naked in front of my mate. His eyes locked on mine and I hated how it took him this long to notice my lack of clothing. His eyes lowered down my body and just as lust began to flare in his gaze they locked on the bruises on my torso. Worry replaced the lust and he leaned forward.“Come here, Kacie,” Viktor said. Instead of a demand it was more of a plea. My bit into the left side of my lip and tasted blood. Pain. It’s what I needed to remind me that I was angry with him. I needed the reminder of what he had done with Jake. I didn’t care that they did it, I was angry that I was left in the dark once again. Especially after we had talked about it the last time and I told them that it bothered me. They were supposed to tell me and they didn’t.I refused to buckle under the pleading Viktor after he had walked out on me,
Kacie “Why Kacie? Why did you act that way? I thought that if I sat back and let you guys talk it out that it would get better but that’s not what happened. The longer I stood back the worse it got. Instead of getting better I watched it unfold in front of me like a car accident I couldn’t stop. Why did you talk to him that way? I don’t understand why you acted like that. I’ve never seen you that way. I don’t know who you are anymore. Why didn’t you try to stop Jake from leaving? I went after him to try and bring him back. He’s one of us, isn’t he?! You told him he would be one of us. You told him he was one of us. You said you needed him as much as you did me. Was that a lie? Did you not mean it? Did you not mean any of it?” Viktor asked. “Why did I talk to Jake that way? What way? With honesty? Why did you leave me alone? What I needed was for the two of you to keep your promise! Why are you acting like you didn’t do anything wrong?!” “What are you talking about?” Viktor asked. He