I wonder how long this funny truce will last.....
DIANE Leo sighs again after I stop laughing, obviously tired of me. Coming to an agreement with him feels like I just won a huge lottery tonight.“Do you need my help with anything here?” I ask.“No. I'm almost done.” He answers as he retreats back to the lasagna he's making. He spots one of the bags I brought in containing the Chinese takeout.“Since you’re having my lasagna tonight, you won't mind me putting that in the fridge.”“Oh,” I had even forgotten about the Chinese takeout. I give him the bag, “Thanks.”“You're welcome.” He takes the bag from me.I get off the counter and grab my other bags, “I'm coming.”“Alright.” He goes back to finishing up while I leave the kitchen for my room.I open the door of my bedroom and enter inside before shutting it behind me. I keep the bags at a corner of my bed and hurry to the bathroom to have a quick shower.Few minutes later, I am done, feeling refreshed as I step out of my bathroom. After rubbing my night cream on my body and rolling m
DIANE The next morning, I am standing in front of my department building, dressed in a denim blue overall, white T-shirt, with a pair of matching white sneakers. I stare at the entrance, watching many people as they enter and exit from it.I hold tight to my bag strap, the important document I need to submit to the department officer sitting pretty in it. School will resume after this weekend, and just like I promised myself, I'll check out my classrooms and possibly the general art studio of the department.I could also stumble into a few of my level coursemates who might be here to submit a document or two just like me. Also, if I'm lucky enough, I could also meet my senior colleagues here before school resumes properly.After taking in a breath and exhaling calmly, I walk into the building, greeting the security officer as I pass. Once inside, I follow the arrow sign by my left indicating the way to the office of the department officer.In less than a minute, I am in front of the
DIANE Still grinning ear to ear from my unexpected encounter with Jen, I follow the same staircase she went, arriving right outside the building.The lawn before me is fresh, clean, and so green. Even the air around me is crisp and feels like……it feels like I'm exactly where I need to be.Lifting up my phone, I tuck my hair strands behind my ear before taking a few selfies in front of the building to add to the other pictures I'll send out later today.Done, I scroll through the selfies and get rid of the ones that weren't well angled. I smile, feeling so proud of myself.After putting my phone into my bag, I decide to walk back into the building and try to find or ask around for the art studio. Just as I turn, a brooding girl stumbles into me, her phone and books dumping straight on the ground with a thud.“Sorry,” she winces and bends down to gather her stuff, her full shiny black hair splaying all over her slender back in tight, long curls. I stare down on her in shock for a few s
DIANE I can't believe these two weirdos are about to argue in my presence right now.“Really Dante?” Crystal starts. “Are you blind or do you need me to chant the list?,” she begins counting her fingers, “One, Priya is so full of herself and so fucking bitchy. Two, she's also a great liar and a cheat. Three, she also annoys the shit out of me whenever she messes with my stuff if I'm not around the house. Four, she never, ever, accepts that she can be wrong, especially when she is always wrong! Would you like me to go on Dante? Huh?!”Dante rolls his eyes. “I'm very happy right now that you're just telling me all that about your roomie when you could have told me about it more than two weeks ago.”“I told you.” She retorts.“Oh you mean when you blatantly just told me to stay away from Priya like she caught the flu? You can't possibly expect me to act all AWOL on Priya like that, especially when she did nothing to me and since you chose to hoard everything you just said now to yoursel
DIANE Later, when I finally leave campus and get back home, I walk into the silence of the living room.The entire house is quiet and peaceful. Leo isn't home. He called me on my way back to inform me that he was heading out and might not be back early. I didn't bother to ask him where he was going to, besides, we are just housemates, and I felt it wasn't my place to ask him so a private question.Anyway, I head towards my room. Getting to it, I enter and close the door behind me.Now in the comfort and silence of my room, I dump down on my bed and breathe out heavily. A smile comes to my face at the thought of the three hilarious people I have met today.Jen. Crystal. And Dante. Today was great afterall.I pull out my phone from my pocket and toss around on the bed, lying flat on my belly. I scroll through the pictures I took today and the lovely ones that were also sent to me by Dante.They all look so beautiful….One after the other, I carefully select almost all the pictures befo
DIANE I stare at Leo, gauging his words. He is right. I have already learnt so much from Jenelle without even meeting her in person back then.Without a doubt, I know I can certainly learn so much more from her now that I am in the same school and department with her.Suddenly, a stupid question takes shape in my head.Don't ask that Diane, just shut—“Is Jenelle just a friend to you Leo?” I blurt out the question, instantly regretting it.A moment of silence settles between us, a silence that suddenly clamps around my throat, making me wish I never asked. Leo says nothing, and the air around me suddenly starts feeling too choked. Too saturated.Shit Diane. It's none of your fucking business. You shouldn't have as—“Why do you ask that?” Leo finally speaks, folding his arms across his muscular chest, his silver grey eyes pinning on my face like they are trying to trap me and then dig the answer to his question out from my head.I take a moment to gather my thoughts and words, shruggi
DIANEIn the past, parties made me feel……something. Alive. Free. Like the perfect momentary escape from the shackled life I lived back home.I used to love parties so much back in high school. But now, I am not so sure anymore. To even think my past addiction started from there…..Sighing deeply, I check out myself in front of my mirror, adjusting the hem of my purple crop top over my belly. I know I have grown and healed past all that hurt and pain. Gosh, it fucking too months for me to be in the right frame of mind where I am right now.But deep down, in this moment, I know that I need to totally cross the finish line. To physically achieve one of the endgames of my therapy—which is to not shun things or places that used to make me happy just because they now make me remember unpleasant memories.Things or places aren't bad. How we make use of them is what makes them either bad, or good. I have to cross that finish line, and the only way to do that is to face it head on by going to
DIANE I guess I have no choice but to find out myself.With anxiety still brewing inside me, I look around, trying not to allow myself to get imprisoned for long inside my disturbed mind. My breath catches when I spot Leo over the dancing crowd where he is sitting at the bar glittering with bright neon lights, laughing with a girl dressed in a black skin tight dress with ginger red hair.Anyone with eagle eyes and a sensible brain can clearly see and figure out that he is obviously flirting with the girl, and that the girl is also unapologetically flirting back with the not-so-sorry way she is staring down at his mouth every now and then as he continues talking to her.Well, it is now confirmed that Leo and I are both in the same party afterall. I didn't even have to waste my time speculating, and I wasn't wrong when I thought he'd be enjoying his time here with some random girl.“Come on Dee, let's get some drinks.” Crystal tugs at my arm, the sudden nickname coming off her mouth ma