49. Still my little girl.

TASHA

My mum continues eating the popcorns in silence, her eyes never leaving mine. I feel her worry and love for me interwoven together into that single statement. I knew that there was a one hundred percent possiblity of her saying something like that, and she definitely did not disappoint.

But Nate is not Jason. Nate is different, and I choose to believe that. One lesson my past relationship with Jason taught me is to always not disregard the red flags. No human being is perfect, but some are just spawns of the devil. I am not saying that Jason is a spawn of the devil, but there were so many red flags he possessed in the start of our relationship then that I ignored just to continue being with him. I was so obsessed with him, loving him like a fool despite how he continued making me feel like I was forcing myself into being stuck in a one sided love relationship with him. A relationship where he gave me his sex and not his love for me.

I still persevered with him, until I found out