> * Be in the driver's seat of your own life because if you are not, life will drive you. — Oprah Winfrey. * -------- Joseph. ------ I'd always heard about the pain of heartbreak, but I have never really felt it before. I didn't want to believe what I was hearing. I definitely do not want to. I very much want to believe it's just a dream, one I'll soon snap out of. Just that, it isn't. This was reality, one that's too cruel and I can't deny. “ All I did was say a few lovey dovey words and he fell at my feet and now? He follows me around like a stray dog. Haven't you seen how he acts like a love sick fool around me? ” A stray dog and a lovesick fool? Is that all I really mean to her? Those words were like poison seeping into my bloodstream and polluting it. How could she say that about me when all I'd ever done is love and adore her? How? “ Who cares about love nowadays, anyways? It's all business, Bae. ” Her words caused the aching in my heart to intensify. I found it diff
> * You've got to Realize that the most valuable thing you have is today. * **** ----- Mira. ----- I arrived at my class just in time for the literature class to commence. Literature is no doubt my most favorite subject. The class was interesting and insightful as always, it was a book review. The book we read was the secret history by Donna Tartt and a collection of poems by Hayao Miyazaki The interactive class was super fun and interesting. During the course of it, Eva stood up and asked one of the major questions on my mind, which was why the books we read in literature class are mostly ones written by oldies and not youngsters. James Washington, our literature teacher, had the best answer. And soon we dived into a discussion which lasted forever. I stayed back in class, while I awaited Evielyn's arrival after the closing bell rang. The latter had informed me that she'll be ten minutes late as they had some stuff to settle with their commerce teacher. “ Tsk, I ca
> * Make your life matter because one day it will be over. * **** -------- Joseph. ------- On my way back to the class, I made up my mind to act normal so Vera wouldn't suspect anything. The last thing I wanted was for her to suspect I'd eavesdropped on their conversation. But as they say, it's super easy to plan, but hard to act out. At least, I succeeded in not acting violently when I saw her in class. I walked to my seat which was obviously next to her as we were seat mates. At that point, I hated that very fact. “ Hey. ” She'd got that beautiful smile clad on her face as always. I would have fallen for it and thought of myself as lucky an hour ago, but not now. Especially not now. My heart didn't skip a beat as usual which was definitely a good sign. The last thing I wanted was for my heart to start making excuses for her. Rather, I felt disgusted by her. How could one be so good at pretending? “ Hi. ” I replied, taking my eyes off her. She didn't seem to notice my
> * To live is the rarest thing in the world, because most people exist and that's all. * **** ------- Mira. -------- I arrived at Jose's home, earlier than usual. I entered the living room and met Nanny sitting on the couch in deep thoughts. “ Nanny. ” I called out to her and almost immediately she raised up her head and stared at me. “ You are here, Hon. ” She arose and smiled at me. “ Yes, Nanny. ” I advanced towards her, “ Don’t worry, Na. Jose will be fine. He'll be turning twenty soon, remember? ” “ I know, Hon. But I can't help it. ” Her words reminded me of why she was so lost and worried. Following his parent's divorce, Jose had fallen into depression which took him almost four years to finally come out of. During those four years, he'd been going from therapist to therapist, unable to attend classes due to his mental state. I could relate to that delay, as I too was unable to go to school for almost two years following my parents demise. My uncle h
> * Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened. * **** ----- Joseph. ----- The first thing I took note of on regaining consciousness was the heavy weight on my chest. My eyes opened up slowly and I was stunned at what it was. Mira was half hugging me in her sleep with her head on my chest. The closeness was weirdly unfamiliar. Though we've cuddled a number of times over the past five years of our friendship, it still felt different after the three weeks separation. How did we get here? I wondered. “ Jose. ” I recalled her calling out to me, and holding me in her arms while I broke down in her embrace. I remember how comfortable and sweet her embrace was, so comfy and addicting that I was lured to sleep. But what was she doing here in the first instance? Shouldn't she be at the orphanage or something? In my heart, I knew she'd come here for me. But I don't deserve that, do I? After all I'd done. Isn't it funny how those we push away are those who ar
> * If you can feel it, it's real. * **** * Happy 40 chapters, guys! * ------- Joseph. ------ I met Nanny dozing off on the love seat in the sitting room. “ Nanny, Nanny. ” though I felt guilty for trying to wake her up, I was helpless. What would I do without her? Her eyes opened as a frown marred on her face. “ What's the matter, Joseph? ” “ Mira is having a fever. ” “ Oh no, what. ” Her palms were on her mouth in shock. It took her approximately two minutes to finally recover. “ Go and stay with her. I'll be there soon. ” I nodded at her words, finally heading back upstairs to my room. I got some thin fabrics, soaked them in water and squeezed them a little before placing them carefully on Mira's burning forehead. I repeated the process several times, holding her hand gently. The door opened to reveal Nanny holding a cup. She walked towards me and handed me the cup. “ What's this? ” The contents of the cup were whitish in color. “ It's a fever-reducing table
> * Don't take for granted this magical thing called life. * **** ------- Mira. ------- It felt like I'd been on an endless journey, which left me feeling so tired and exhausted. My eyes fluttered open and the first thing I noticed was the familiar, yet so unfamiliar ceilings. Right before I could start thinking too much, I felt hunger surge through me, making me pause. Only then, did I recall that I didn't have dinner before heading to bed yesterday. “ What time is it? ” I wondered, feeling like I've asleep since forever. I managed to get up from the bed, but my leg turned jelly on taking a step and I fell backwards. And just when I thought I was going to land on the ground. I was engulfed in a familiar warm embrace. It was so familiar that I didn't need a priest or prophet to tell me who it was. I was able to steady myself and soon came face to face with Jose. Who looked like he'd just gotten out of the shower. “ Thank you. ” Nodding, he tucked a loose tendril of m
> * Live each day as if it may be your last on earth, cos it may be. * **** ------ Mira. ------ I was seated on my bed in deep thoughts, but was interrupted when a knock rang at the door. “ Come in. '' I said, obviously knowing who was at the door. The door opened to reveal Jose, holding a tray of food in his hands. He placed the tray on the bedside table in front of me. “ Thank you. ” “ You are welcome. ” He brushed his hair away from his face. “ Here, Evie just called asking after you. ” He said, handing me my cell phone. “ Oh, Thanks. ” “ My pleasure. Enjoy your meal. I'm off. ” I watched him walk out of the room. I dialed Evie's number just minutes after he left. The call was picked up at the second ring, it almost felt like she'd been waiting for my call. “ Hey baby girl! How are you feeling now? ” Her concerned voice rang through the phone. “ Hi. I am feeling a lot better. What about you? ” “ That's great to hear. I'm okay. So what are you up to right