29.

Lexi’s POV

“It’s fine, you’re fine,” I said to myself as I tried to keep my tears at bay, “what is wrong with you?! He doesn’t even love you!” I gave myself the reality check but none of that seemed to be working.

None of what I was doing seemed to be working as I was breaking inside, my breathing had paced and I clutched my chest while tapping it slowly trying to regulate my breathing.

I couldn’t believe what I’d just heard but maybe if I hadn’t gone to eavesdrop rudely I wouldn’t have heard all of this.

My entire being was tearing apart inside and I felt like someone had just dropped a bomb on me. I knew that I shouldn’t even be hurt but I just couldn’t help myself.

Laying on my bed, I could feel the hot stinging tears at the back of my eyes that I’m trying so hard to not let loose. I tried, I really tried to act like I wasn’t fazed, to act like none of what is going on in this house matters to me but even that doesn’t seem to work either.

I shouldn’t even be this hurt, if anything