INAYA -Is Hamza a materialistic man without a drop of emotions?No, Absolutely not.Even someone like him, with a lot of money, a lot of responsibility to bear, and much ambition, and dedication towards his work is still just an average man who cuddles to his wife at the end of the day and wants to be loved and surrounded with warmth.Even when he has so much confidence, when he's ruthless and seems undefeated, He's still just a man, since we're not godly complete, my almost perfect husband is no exception, of course, he has many flaws and uncertainties.Our visit to Azziz proved this fact to me again... Meaning that my husband is sometimes led by his feelings, that he can be uncertain and needs to be reass ured. When we finally went out of the prisoner, Hamza who was dragging me behind him finally stopped walking and he decided to act bossy with other people instead, his victim was the innocent protection team, he immediately summoned the team leader then issued endless orders, main
INAYA -Why does Hamza treat his own family as if they are meaningless people and only consider them as an unnecessary nuisance?I thought about this question for a long time actually. Especially when I lived together with my in-laws, since Hamza wasn't only cold to them, he treated them akin they were really inexistent.I even once watched him quarreling with his sister Ines, to be precise, I watched Ines yelling and complaining nonstop to the silent and indifferent Hamza, this particular fight happened at the top of the stairs so this meant the matter was not so private and I could watch since I had the heart of a journalist, it was natural for me to shamelessly stand beside them and watch what was going on.I vaguely understood that the subject of their quarrel was that Ines promised a certain acquaintance of hers that Hamza will invest in his X production, this promise wasn't fulfilled of course, and apparently, Hamza refused in a rude way that brought shame to his sister.While s
INAYA -Hamza spoke for a long time, this treatment is of course very unlikely to be attributed to him, but yes, my husband spoke until I wondered whether he practiced this chat we were having endless times in his head.Because it seemed like that to me.He explained to me what happened in his family while listening I realized that indeed, money is the dirt of life.He said that back when he was 23 years old, which means when I was in my first year in college, his interest in business was growing enormously bigger, same as his interest in me.He was still in college at the time, working on his master's degree, however, instead of traveling the world and spending the glorious days of his youth doing something fun, this fun-hating husband of mine's greatest passion was the world of business even at that young age, consequently, he was impatient and he wanted to learn from the man he looked up to as soon as possible, he wanted to follow the steps of the best teacher in the country, his f
INAYA -I didn't expect Nana to call my father-in-law, I really didn't.The whole situation seemed as if I was a petty little girl in class who went to her teacher's desk to complain about a classmate teasing her, then the teacher called this wrongdoer to punish him for her! I seemed like the pettiest person on planet earth!I eyed Nana while feeling very displeased then said, "why did you ask them to come Nana? Wellah (I swear to god) war will break out in the house today thanks to you! It's my mistake for telling you in the first place!"She gave me a cold stare and then lectured me saying, "who are you to teach me how to act? As long as I live this family shall stay my responsibility, I'm the eldest and you should all obey me! I'm at the age where I should be praying to god and waiting fo r my hour to come but you still insist to send me to my grave with a burdened heart! Not one among you all is obedient... Etc"She spoke until I cursed the moment I decided to object to what she d
INAYA -The first time Hamza discovered my Phobia was probably when I was 15.As for the reason I'm saying "Probably", it is because he seemed genuinely surprised and clueless when he was witnessing me experiencing that particular panic attack, I never saw him having a similar clueless face ever again so I suppose that was truly his first time.I remember he just kept looking at me with both dumbfounded and scarred expressions, not understanding what I was going through in front of his watchful eyes.He was in his first year in college back then, and he came to visit Nana at the first chance he got after his exams, and to both my and Nana's surprise, Ines came along with him too!At the time, we understood the reason behind Hamza's repetitive visits to our house, it was because of his health condition: he had a strong respiratory allergy which seemed to subside when he changes the climate, namely by occasionally coming to our small town. So yes, Hamza had an obvious reason to come, bu
INAYA -Eating with the emotional post-traumatic Nana was the worst decision I made! Not for a single moment, she spared my poor nerves and ears from hearing how the hit on Ines's head could have been much more dangerous if it landed on her nose, her eyes, her mouth, or her temporal bone.When I logically asked her what the hell was this temporal bone she replied, "the doctor said it's the part of the skull around the ear area, it's very fragile, she could have had a concussion!"I bet the doctor was so idle that he explained the whole freaking human head anatomy to them! It is either this or that the poor him was actually forced to explain the human anatomy because Nana and my mother-in-law fought at the hospital and got him involved and stuck in the middle between them.She spoke for a very long time, and although I initially was hungry, I became full without eating much just hearing her exaggerated point of view, as for the reason I still kept her company against my heart's wish to
INAYA -During the following couple of days, the villa turned into a museum, literally.My mother-in-law informed the whole elite society in the country about Ines's "near death" experience, consequently, many decided to suddenly turn into very dutiful creatures, and they came to the villa to visit the survivor.In the beginning, many among them were sent back without setting one foot inside the villa, the guards at the exterior gate refused to let them in following Hamza's strict orders.But after refusing 11 extremely wealthy visitors in. ays, I came to realize that it was useless, disrespectful, and dangerous to refuse such mighty people! Hamza already had a ton of enemies so he didn't have to create new ones by doing such silly action.Having this strong motivation in my head, I found myself suggesting to him despite my heart's wish, "Hamza, I don't think it's proper to keep disrespectfully sending these people back from the gate, you're only creating problems that you really don'
She scoffed then daringly said, "Or what? Will you throw me in jail as well? Will you send me to exile as you did with Lydia? What else are you still ready to do for someone who doesn't care about you at all!"Her words were very poisonous, I didn't interrupt her because I felt it was useless trying to convince her with something she would never believe, I know it took me extremely long before I finally loved my husband but the feelings I have for him shall never waver nor change again.While she was speaking, I just wished Hamza's heart won't be affected by what she was saying.I didn't want to stay for longer and listen to such unnecessarily hurtful accusations, so I left the dining room and walked to the garden to have some fresh air.It was extremely hot weather outside, the moment I left the conditioned villa to enter the garden it was akin to walking inside an oven! There was no fresh air at all!But I needed to change the climate anyways.To my surprise, someone else shared my