Cancer and Heart Attacks

Ace POV

I nearly ran to the fucking bathroom after what she just said. She looked me dead in the eye then moved slowly to my ear and said "what if...", I couldn't think about it. Shit! The blue balls this girl gives me are going to cause serious damage. It fucking hurts and now I only want her ten times more.

Why does she even want me anyways? I'm a fucker and an asshole. Does she want to be controlled and yelled at? And sex, what does she expect? Does she honestly think I can resist that long? I could tear into her the first night we were alone and we both knew she would cave.

What the fuck? Why am I even fighting this so much? She is a big girl. She wants to watch me epically fail at being with her that is her fault for wanting an asshole in the first place.

I punched the paper towel container and that was a mistake. Now my balls and hand fucking hurt. I shook it off and splashed cold water on my face. I'll be the asshole I truly am and if she still wants me that is on her for bein