WINTER:Hawk loved me.It was surreal and I did not know what was happening. Or whether I would believe him.I pointed at myself. “You loved me?”“Is it unbelievable?”“It is. I’m sorry, but I am not taking your feelings for granted. But…I cannot give you a response right now.”“It’s fine, Miss Winter. You don’t have to give me your answer. Saying my feelings to you was already a great help since I was able to get rid of this heavy feeling.”“I’m sorry, Hawk.”“It’s fine, Miss Winter.”He turned his back. Just as he was about to step forward, I said, “Hawk…I haven’t given an answer yet.”“I will understand whatever your opinion, Miss Winter.”“Are you sure?”“I am fine.”He was not fine. His shoulders drooped and he was sad. I wished I could ease the pain he felt right now, but my heart was in chaos. I just could not lie to myself and tell him that everything was okay. That I would be choosing him, because right now, I cannot do anything.“You will still stay, right?”He laughed in a l
WINTER:I held my breath, as I listened to my ex-husband. “W-We never kissed, Cali. It never happened.”A little part of me wanted it to happen. To check if my toes still tingled. Or I was still lusting over him. What would happen if we kissed?If you were tlaat curious, you should have kissed him. He chuckled while massaging his neck. “Yeah. Yeah. We never. But we might when Carmela did not enter.”Well, it might be true. I might kiss him for real. “It might happen. D-Does that mean…you have feelings for me?” he asked shyly. “You can choose not to answer, pumpkin. I don't want to pressure you or anything like that, okay? I am only curious.”My eyes bulged. Then, I masked my face. “What the heck are you saying? Why would I have feelings for you? Our marriage started with a loveless one and it ended the same.” I scoffed while feeling the coldness of my hand. My heartbeat wildly against my ribcage as if it was going to come out. “I.. I don’t have feelings for you.”“If…If you don’t ha
WINTER:I could see that Calcifer was interested in listening to me. Good because this was the only time I would be brave like this. Next time, I won't be able to tell him. Cali's expression softened in the camera and I had the urge to hug him right now. If only we were not separated by the virtual world…then…I would be able to do what I wanted with him like cuddling and kissing. “Why did you leave, pumpkin? I mean, why did you withdraw and imprisoned yourself in your room?”Here it goes. “There was some incurable sickness in our family which only spread among the women. Mom was one of the victims of that sickness so the rest of her family members. When I started to get some symptoms, I got scared that I would leave you. I eman…despite being in a loveless marriage, I also liked you as my husband since you’ve been good to me. I was scared that I would leave this world without getting the chance to know you, Cali.”He sucked in a breath.“W-What did you experience?”“Dizziness. Pain
WINTER:Unknowingly, my hands went to my lips and touched them. My breathing slowed as I focused on Calcifer's lips. A kiss, huh? I nibbled on my bottom lip as I remembered the memories. He was such a good kisser and his lips were soft and always red, reminding me so much of the apples I saw on the online streaming platforms. What would it feel like if something happened between us again? It had been a long time since the last time I was with a man. Well, excluding Hawk since these past few months, he was exclusively working for me. Until Calcifer arrived. I shook my head at the train of my thoughts. Those were dangerous thoughts that should have been destroyed the moment they started to kick in. Really, Winter? You're going to be fooled again by someone like him? Then you will cry your heart out?"S-shut up, Calcifer. You're only lonely now. You can kiss your other ex-wife." If he was not lonely, then he would be talking to Carmela now. That woman was desperate to get Cali’s a
WINTER: “I never said that!” I exclaimed.“I heard it, pumpkin. You're so cute when you're embarrassed.”My nose flared. “I'm not trying to be cute!” I whispered in a harsh voice. “I know. You're not acting to be one. It's effortless,” he retorted in a dreamy voice. “Can I keep you forever, pumpkin?”“You're getting drunk.”“Drunk of happiness because of you. I wish we were always like this. I don't know talking to you is fun. It seemed like we were on a courting stage where we got to know each other.” I fell silent. Well, it was true. Back then, we got married directly. Calcifer was so busy at that time, running their business while I was also helping Dad with our company. Except for our names and family background, we did not have any idea who my groom was. “You're being cheesy,” I muttered under my breath, but was silently smiling. I liked talking to him, too, and unfortunately, no matter how much I tried to keep the hatred in my heart, it was slowly disappearing. It will only
WINTER: Are we going on a date? I wanted to ask but stopped myself. Liam had not known Hawk loved me and I did not think this was the best time to tell him about it. And if I did tell him, what would he say? Would he be against it or not?“Where would we go?”“Where do you want to go?” he asked. “I don't have anything in mind.” Right now, I would rather spend my day sleeping in bed, but this was Hawk we were talking about. “But we can go where you want. D-do you have something in mind, Miss Winter?” he asked shyly. Where I want, huh? There was only one thing I wanted. No particular place in mind but somewhere where I could be at peace.Liam raised his hands. “Me, Uncle Hawk. I want to go to the zoo!”“A zoo?” Hawk scratched his head. “If it's fine with your Mom.”"I'm fine everywhere as long as Liam wants it."The child danced with joy. "Yes! Thank you, Mommy! Thank you, Uncle Hawk!""Why don't you change first, Liam so that we can go now?""Yes, Mommy. I will change."I called t
WINTER:The whispers from the women continued and I did not like it a bit. The more that I wanted to hide Hawk from them. My bodyguard deserved someone who would never cheat him. Someone who would love him for the rest of his life. Since when are you getting possessive of your bodyguard? the other part of my mind said. This is not possessiveness. I am merely trying to protect him! Protect him from what? Or are you only jealous, Winter? I'm not jealous of anything or anyone. Why would I be jealous of them? Hawk lifted his gaze, watching me with a confused expression.“This is a nice spot, Miss Winter. Liam can see the giraffes from here.”I'm not jealous, right? I cannot accept that I am jealous. It only meant that I had an inkling of feelings for him. Which only meant that I had some feelings for him and Calcifer.Torn between two lovers, huh?Hawk was not bad at all. He was nice and warm inside so we would get to know him better and I could attest to that. “Yes, Mommy. I love t
WINTER: “Yes, it was a woman, Miss Winter. Is there a problem with a woman being a content creator? You should try watching her videos, Miss Winter. It's educational. She explores different countries and lets you see what that place offers.”My mouth opened and then closed.There was nothing wrong with that. What was wrong was how I thought right now. Was this jealousy over some random woman? And why would I feel like that?“Do you like her?” I asked before I could stop myself. Now, Hawk liking someone was already an issue to you? the other part of my mind asked. “I like her,” he answered without hesitation, without even getting embarrassed. My lips pressed into a thin line. “Why do you like her?” I pressed.“Uhm…is it wrong to like her, Miss Winter?”Yeah. Is it wrong that he will like someone else, Winter? Did you forget that the world does not revolve around you always?“N-No. Nothing.”“Is it not okay to like a content creator, Miss Winter?” he pressed, in pure confusion. I