This is becoming a habit now, waking up in Josh's bed. The only part of this habit I don’t like is waking up and he is not here. He has come into a good routine with my aspirin and water and pot of coffee downstairs. I am seeing a side of him I never knew existed or aside I just not bothered looking at before.
As always he has left me a note next to the little heart I drew for him on the fridge.
Josh
I cannot believe those words that came out my father's mouth. How can he, in fact, how can anybody be expected to choose between their family and the man you see yourself spending the rest of my life with. It is fucked up and downright mean.Sammy ~ does not even stand up for me, nor does Josh. The business means absolutely nothing to me, I want no part of it. I was stupid to think that there would not be some sort of hidden agenda. All of them, every single one of them can take it and shove it. I am not listening to ultimatums and making stupid decisions that makes no sense.&nbs
It is the very first night in my own apartment. Saying goodbye to Josh was by far the worst thing I had to do. This time walking away from him was much harder as the times before. My love for him has grown so much stronger over the past couple of months. It feels like our relationship has been doomed from the start.I take the key to his apartment out my pocket and put it safely away, maybe one day I will use it.
I need to drag my sorry ass out of bed to the kitchen to get my own aspirin and water this morning, there is no Josh here to do it anymore which means there is no fucking hot coffee either. I need to rethink this situation. I will leave the aspirin in my room from now on and just put the coffee on the night before, that is if I am no too drunk to remember.Jenni is coming over this morning to help me out with something and after that we will go to work. She is of the impression that we are going to Dynasti tonight.
We standing outside Spangles waiting for Mason's car. I am expecting some fancy sports car or high end luxury car. But no! A limo!Becca ~”And I guess you just have these laying around?”Mason ~”Yes, I have a lot of things just laying around.”Becca ~”Seriously?”Jenni ~”Get the fuck in baby girl.”Becca ~”Shut the fuck up Jenni.”Tristan ~”Can I sit with you Jenni?”Jenni ~”Of course, why you even asking.”Mason helps me in and he sits next to me handing me a glass of champagne.Becca ~”What are we celebrating?”Mason ~”Your beauty, you l
It's my day off work, I am staying late in bed because I have no idea what to do with myself. I think back to that kiss I had with Mason last night, it was beyond amazing. But I am also forced to remember what I said afterwards, why would I say something so stupid. I just hope he does not take it up seriously.Then the doorbell rings.Fuck it's Mason. Did my drunk ass give him my address as well!
Josh is standing behind me and I am sitting on Mason's lap. My back is to him so he can’t see my face. I cannot turn around, Mason better not turn me around. If someone says my name I am going to die and they be dead too.Mason ~”Baby girl I will be right back.”Josh ~”
We get back to my place, Josh is eager to get my clothes off and I am eager to hear his latest excuse for lying to me, again.Becca ~”Josh.”Josh ~”Yes?”
....Josh's POV.....I have had it with this woman. She is so out of control it makes my head spin. Never in my life have I been in such a fucked up relationship. Every time we see each other it ends up in a fight and we break up and not speak for weeks. Then while we not speaking she goes for the first cock that walks. I feel like a toy to her in her crazy messed up world.But I love her.