Almost

{ Elliot }

I almost regretted it.

And I almost complained when she said we wouldn't be in touch anymore, but I didn't and I'm grateful.

I won't let it get to me that much, not right now. My rocky relationship with Angelique seems like the least important thing at the moment. It may go well or it may go badly or it may end altogether, but there’s more important stuff in my mind. I can’t give her the amount of importance and attention she requires. Or demands.

However, I almost regret not opening my eyes and looking at her beautiful face for a little longer, not talking to her, not telling her that I'm sorry for not replying to the hundreds of emails she sent. I almost regret not turning my face and giving her a kiss. Not trying to raise my hand to touch her. Not telling her that even though I don't want to deal with her right now, I don't want this to end, either.

I'm so frustrated when she leaves that I get up from the gurney making use of all the strength left in me.

I have to st