XIII

DELILAH

Liking him like crazy and then not pursuing him in an annoying way could come out to be useless, right? I mean it was not wrong if I chose to watch him through my room if I was obsessed with his beauty.

I could not help but do it. He was so attractive that I could not keep my eyes off him.

I had binoculars. And since he had come to live in the house next door to mine, I desperately wanted to see him every second.

After dinner, when dad was busy watching TV, I used to watch him from the window of our house.

When I did this for the first time, I regretted it because I should not invade the privacy of others like this, but only the heart can understand the foolish and crazy desires of an innocent heart. My heart was also crazy for him. I was never as crazy for anyone as I was for him and he was my first. He was the first person for whom I was even ready to do such an act.

That day I kept the window of my room open ajar. From behind the curtains I was sitting at my study desk