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Hide Behind the Sun
“Thought it was u. I’m so fkn sorry.”
Before Silvia could answer the text, Miyen snatched the phone from her hand and traded it for a mate. She didn’t complain. She knew her friend was right. Enough already. Time to put an end to it and let go.
Like it was just so easy.
They were in her room in Caseros, laying back on the bed side by side, watching a movie on her tablet. She smoked and drank mate. Her eyes were still swollen but dry. The shower and the meal had helped her to clear her mind. She felt drained, and it was that exhaustion what kept her wide awake. So she remained there, quiet and still, curling up against her friend’s side.
“Told you he thought it was me,” she said out of the blue.
“Oh, that changes everything, right? Turns out he’s not a fucking son of a bitch but a fucking asshole. Glad to know.”
Miyen’s rant pushed a weary chuckle out
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