ACCEPTANCE

NIGHTINGALE

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I honestly don’t know what I was thinking at that moment. One second I was yelling at him, telling him how much I hate him, and then I saw the gun and my only thought was that I wanted to end it all. I grabbed the gun before he could stop me and pulled the trigger before I could overthink and convince myself that dying isn’t the best option. There was a click sound but the bullet didn’t leave the magazine because the safety was on. I didn’t get a second chance to attempt my murder, he grabbed the gun from me and threw it far from my reach.

For several seconds we stared at each other and he looked at me like he couldn’t believe I

just tried to kill myself. He seemed to just be realising what a mess I currently am even though he has tried to convince me and himself otherwise. I gasped as he moved close to me and grabbed the back of my hair so hard that my scalp twinged with a bit of pain.

“Don’t ever do that again.”

I expected him to yell or maybe even hit me. But he didn