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If loving you means I have to look at you every day and remember how much it cost? My brother's left this world and I would never see him again. So maybe you did not remember that Maria. Or maybe you forgot.

Maybe you felt it's inconsequential to you. But it's not inconsequential to me. I've lost enough I've really lost enough. I do not deserve to lose any more person in my life, especially you.

“You are the boundary to all of this when I look at you.” I think about how it is an abomination to be in love with you.

Don’t you see that you are my limit? Do you understand it now? Should I continue to make you understand how critical my position is? He says to me and I do understand it now.

“I understand why he had to be away from you understand what it meant.” Yes, I did make it very hard to do be a part of his life. Knowingly or unknowingly everything that has happened now. He really doesn't deserve it but it has already happened.

It is insane how he is shedding more lights to the obvi