Chapter 116. I sat on the table across from Bella and Derek the sun hit against my skin as I fiddled with my cup of coffee which was going cold. We sat in awkward silence as I tried to think of something to talk about. The last time I saw Bella was when the three of us sat in the kitchen of a restaurant discussing our plans for our lives and the next thing I knew I had moved on to the modeling agency and Derek moved on with his life. Bella had always talked about wanting to open a restaurant and I wondered if she had yet. Finally deciding upon what my conversation starter would be, I opened my mouth to speak when she interrupted suddenly. "So Zora how have you been? It has been a while,” she said softly. My mind began to panic at the thought of me being the center of the conversation. “Oh, I've been all right just here and there you know,” I said dismissively as I shrugged. "How about you? How's everything been?” I asked. "Oh well we've been here and there as well, still trying
Chapter 117.I almost tripped as I ran up to my room, anger still flowing through my veins. I was pissed and unsettled. It seemed like everyone knew what was best for me without actually asking me how I really feel and it irked me to no end. Why can't everyone just let me be?"F**k" I yelled, exasperated and tired of people telling me what to do. I knew I was being a little dramatic but I didn't care. I was tired of listening to what people had to say. I had a right to feel the way I did. I just lost my father for Christ's sake.Counting one to eight I let out a sigh and sat at the edge of my bed. I was feeling considerably better now. Deciding to call Elliott, I plucked my phone from my pocket. The light came on as I tapped on the screen. I typed in my password and tapped on the contact icon. Elliott was the first name on my call log. My finger hovered over his name.I wanted to call him to hear what he had to say after all he hadn't done anything wrong, all he had done was be there
Chapter 118. I took tentative steps into the agency. Everything looked just as I had left it and different at the same time. A wave of deja Vu hit me like I had experienced this moment before as I stepped into the lobby. With each step I took I could feel eyes following my every step. The whispers got progressively louder as I moved across the hallway. I had prepped myself for the stares and the whispers but nothing prepared me for how much I'd hate it. I tried to ignore them by putting a little pep in my step. They could say whatever they liked. I didn't care. A gust of wind escaped my lungs as I felt something like a brick wall hit me from behind. "What the hell?" I exclaimed.I heard Myra's voice before I could turn around."Oh my God, Zora it's you" she squealed, her voice laced with excitement. She sounded happy to see me."You are choking me, Myra…" I coughed "Shit, I'm sorry" Myra lets go of my neck abruptly and jumps to stand in front of me. She hugged me again and I smile
Chapter 119.It was exactly 5:30 pm when my alarm went off. It was time to go home. I stretched my hands tired from the day's work. Overall it was a good day if not for Sharon of course, it would have been a great day but I decided not to dwell on negativity. It only fueled unpleasant feelings and I was already getting over negative feelings after being stuck with nothing but them for months.Elliot had still not come to see me or called back all day and I felt a little hurt.I was hoping he'd come over so we could talk but I guess even he had tried. Deciding that I didn't have to wait around for him, I could just go see him. I made a decision to stop by his place. I didn't want to admit it just yet but I missed him and I wanted to be enveloped by his big arms once more. I picked up my phone and decided to call Kathy, to tell her I wouldn't be home tonight. She picked up on the second ring."Hey, Kathy," I chirped. "Hey, Zora," Kathy said, surprised but also happy to hear from me."
Chapter 120.I struck a pose as I stood in front of the cameraman making sure to keep my eyes away from the flash as it beamed brightly and the shutter sound filled the room. I held the lotion closer to my face as I struck another pose and waited for the bright flash of light again. The camera man smiled in satisfaction as he leaned down and reached for his camera.Myra sat in a corner while a makeup artist worked on her face. She was excited that we were working on the commercial together. She had always wanted to work with me and I was also glad to have a familiar person working with me. We had mutual interests and it made agreeing on certain conditions and corrections much easier than it would have been with a stranger.But that wasn’t the only thing that made me glad, it was everything else. From the way the lotion smelled as I held it close to my face to the way the air seemed to caress the exposed parts of my skin and to the way the silk gown I wore swayed as the fan blew at it.
Chapter 121.Heavy beads of sweat sat on my temple and ran down my face slowly. I stood frozen in place as my eyes shook in fright, an overwhelming feeling of fear and nausea crept through my veins, and at the same time I felt a spark of pain and hurt flicker in my chest and soon it felt like my entire chest was engulfed in a raging inferno.It wasn’t true, it just couldn’t be, there had to be an explanation, a reason the entire thing had to be a joke. It had to be.But as my eyes lingered on the Tv screen, a harsh wave of reality hit me like an angry storm, pushing me off my balance. I reeled back and was about to reach the ground when I felt Myra’s arms struggle to break my fall. I wished inwardly that she didn’t. I wanted to hit the ground, I wanted it to break open and I wanted to be buried inside the depths of it.It felt as though there wasn’t any point in living anymore, my heart had shattered into multiple fragments leaving painful shards piercing my chest, the air was suffoca
Chapter 122.Time travel doesn’t exist. That statement felt like a hoax the following days after I met with Elliott. I felt as though I had been plunged right back into the past. A past I had struggled to crawl out from only a few months before, a past that left me devastated and locked up in my room was now replaying in the present.Only this time, there were no flowers or midnight texts, this time I was truly alone. I couldn’t see a future for myself anymore, part of me knew that there was still one for me but how on earth was I supposed to get there after all I’d been through?I’m only human and there’s only so much I could take so why on the earth was the world so unfair to me? Why was I being saddled with more weight than I could lift? What on earth had I ever done to be treated like this? Was it so wrong to fall in love?I missed the old me, strong, independent, self-willed, and determined, and whenever I thought about it I realized that the greatest mistake I had ever made was
Chapter 123.At this point in my life, I wasn’t sure I could handle another shocking news.It felt as though I was in a tragic slice-of-life drama and I was the main character. There was absolutely no other explanation as to why amid everything that was going on I stood at the hospital with results from a pregnancy test in my hands.And it read positive.I had gone to the hospital to get a prescription for nausea or fever at most but instead. I found out that there had been a living thing in me for two whole months. My mind flashed back to moments when I had felt dizziness and fatigue but I thought they were from work-related stress or at most the effect of mourning my father in an unhealthy manner for so long.Meanwhile, I was pregnant. I couldn’t even understand my emotions anymore as I stood frozen on a spot while the doctor explained the result with a wide smile on his face. Ordinarily, I would have been happy, no, I still should have been happy no matter the circumstance but the