A moment later, she sighed and shifted so that she was lying sideways across my body, her head propped up by her arm which lay over my stomach. Her legs were tucked underneath her body as she nestled her body against my shoulder, letting her cheek rest against mine. I wrapped my arm securely around her and pulled her body closer to me. A sudden realization hit me, and I blushed slightly."Alessia..." I started. "Can I ask you something personal?"She looked up at me curiously, prompting me to continue."Uh...why'd you start avoiding me after we first got back here?" I muttered nervously. "You used to be all over me whenever I tried to talk to you before, so why now? Do you regret.""Oh my gosh!" Alessia exclaimed suddenly, cutting me off, "I'm sorry! I shouldn't have done that! I didn't mean to ignore you! It's just..." She paused and lowered her voice. "I'm starting to get better at controlling myself these days." She said sheepishly."Really?" I asked, raising an eyebrow. I gave
At least I hadn't had another nightmare. Well, I suppose that's good...at least until I wake up again anyway. That is if I woke up again. It seems like I've fallen asleep pretty soon. I opened one eye cautiously, not daring to move my gaze away from the ceiling. I was completely confused. Where the hell am.I blinked and looked around me. This wasn't my bedroom. I narrowed my eyes and raised my head off the pillow. I looked down at myself and was pleasantly surprised to find that I had changed into a clean pair of shorts and a long sleeved t-shirt. Why am I still wearing jeans? I sat upright and swung my legs round, allowing my feet to touch the floor. I glanced around the room again, trying to piece together where exactly I had woken up.I ran my hands through my tangled hair as I pushed myself off of my mattress and walked towards the door of my bedroom. After opening it carefully I stepped out into the hallway and looked around warily, expecting to see someone waiting there for
I tried not to let the tears escape my eyes. I couldn't help it, though. This was the worst thing I had ever experienced and I'm honestly surprised I haven't broken down crying yet. I mean, I knew this was a possibility, but to see it happen right before my eyes was definitely different. I hated it and I wanted to forget about it already."Are you ready?" The nurse questioned, staring at me expectantly.I swallowed thickly, shaking my head. "I-I'm fine. Can you just do it?" I stuttered, wiping the tears away with the sleeve of my sweater.The nurse sighed. "Alright." She nodded. "I want you to lay down on the examination table and pull up your shirt, dear."I bit my lip and nodded. I laid down on the metal table and pulled my shirt over my head. Once I was done, the nurse put a cold gel pack on my stomach and placed it over the area where the baby was supposed to be located. Then she reached for a thermometer, which I assumed was for checking my temperature. I closed my eyes tightl
When she finally left the room once again, I lay back down and stared down at the blanket draped over my body. I had been laying there for at least half an hour now, and I had already started to feel extremely tired. It didn't take very long for me to fall asleep, and before I knew it I was fast asleep once again. When I woke up, I found myself lying in bed for the second time that week. I wasn't really sure how long I had actually slept, but it felt like it had been longer than I expected. I stretched my arms above my head and rolled over onto my side. I yawned deeply and stretched once again before sitting up on the edge of the mattress. Everything still hurt and I still ached all over, but I managed to force myself to get up and make my way downstairs to the cafeteria. I made my way past the nurses station and towards the elevator, but when I arrived at the cafeteria I noticed that the place was empty except for one person sitting by himself near the corner. He wore a black t
I sat there at the hospital, staring at the ceiling and wondering if I could ever accept being a mother. I tried to remind myself that things will work out eventually, but my doubts remained. I wanted to believe that I could get through this and survive, but I was starting to doubt myself. I didn't know if I could get over this especially since I was only twenty-two years old. Would I be able to stay strong? Would I be able to keep going and move on? Would I be able to overcome everything that I've gone through in my short life so far? If I lost all hope then I wouldn't have a chance anymore. I'm scared of losing everyone, I really am, but right now all I want to do is run away from everything and pretend like none of this has happened. Maybe it's not the best idea, but I don't think I'll be able to stop myself unless I try. At the very least, I'm willing to try.When I got home from the hospital I decided to take a nap instead of going straight home to sleep. I couldn't risk fal
"Well, maybe you should give it another shot." She said before leaning forward and pecking me on the cheek. "Now get out of the car, we're already wasting valuable time, remember?"After opening the door, I hopped out of the car and made my way to the shop. A couple of minutes after entering the shop, I noticed Aunt Rachel sitting near the cashier counter reading a magazine whilst sipping on her coffee. I quickly ran up to her and smiled sheepishly as I greeted her."Good afternoon!" I said cheerfully."Hello dearie." She replied in return. "How was your day?""It was alright, how about yours?"Aunt Rachel set her magazine down on the counter and reached up to ruffle my hair. "It was okay. It was the same as always, really, nothing exciting happened."I rolled my eyes as I grabbed an empty stool and sat down next to her."Did you manage to find anything for today?" I inquired.She nodded slowly. "I did. Although I had to go shopping again." She said in an annoyed tone.I laughed lig
I swallowed thickly and stared at the wall in front of me. After a moment, I shook my head again."I don't want to burden you.." I said quietly, avoiding her gaze."Oh, honey, you won't. I love being here for you. Besides, I never minded dealing with problems that involved you."I looked at her briefly then, and my expression softened at the sight of her reassuring smile. After a few moments of silence, I eventually gathered enough courage to speak. I knew I couldn't avoid it forever, but I also knew it was better for me to just spit it out and get over with it."...I'm sorry for keeping everything a secret from you, Aunt Rachel." I murmured quietly. "I was scared that you wouldn't approve.""Don't worry about that sweetheart." She insisted. "Just tell me what's bothering you."I hesitated for a moment before taking a deep breath and finally meeting her gaze."I haven't been honest about things with you, Aunt Rachel."Her brows furrowed as she listened intently."My father was murder
"They looked nice."Aunt Rachel smiled warmly at me. "Yes, they did. And that' s probably because they're together in heaven now."I bit my lip anxiously and averted my gaze, unsure if I believed that. I pushed the photo of the couple to the side and continued to eat my breakfast. I was grateful when Aunt Rachel left shortly after, but I knew there was no doubt in my mind that she would bring back some flowers tomorrow and leave them on my bedside table.I decided it would be best for everyone if I didn't talk to Aunt Nona anymore. I hadn't realized how close we had become. She was so kind and understanding of my feelings, but I knew that if I continued talking about it, she'd find out everything. She had enough to deal with, and I didn't want to drag her down.After breakfast I went outside to play in the snow for a short while before returning inside. Aunt Nona came through the backdoor while I was playing on the floor."Hello Sweetheart," she greeted, smiling. "Are you alright?"