"You look like shit.""Thanks for pointing that out to me," I roll my eyes while Emily hands me my cup of coffee."Was your date with Evans that good or that bad?" She wriggles her eyebrows at me. "I didn't hear you come back. It must have been late.""You were curled up in front TV, watching Shadowhunters without me. Or shall I say, you slept to it?""Yeah, I probably ended up wanting to have it off with Jace after seeing him do his workout, so I could only fall asleep to have that in my dreams."I chuckle at her boldness. "But you are distracting me now. Is that a bad thing?" She brings us back to the topic."Jake turned up," I sigh.Emily gasps loud. "Wait, what? What happened?"I tell her the whole story, how I kicked Evans's ass and Jake appeared and challenged me. How I escaped with Evans and we spent time in the park talking about how we texted and Jake's eyes haunting me that I couldn't sleep.She lets out a long sigh after I have finished my story."So, Jake didn't spill the
I see he is staring at me while he comes straight to us."Hey Evans, you're here early today. Thought you need to work?""Yep, well I need to leave soon as I start working in two hours.""You lost your shirt," Jake says mockingly.Evans chuckles, "It was kinda my only chance of winning this battle today. You saw her yesterday. Thought I'd distract her a little, seems like it worked, "he says while smirking dirty in my direction.While Jake's look has changed, he is now glaring at me. "You staying Skater girl?" he asks in a rough voice.I decide to pretend I didn't hear him and trail off in the direction Emily, who now is staring at Jake."What the fuck?", she exclaims whispering to me."Sorry I know you were enjoying this, but can you help me get away from here asap? I don't want to exchange a fucking single word with him.""Sure Babe, I'll take care of it. Just stay here and sit down for the moment."She walks off talking to Evans pretending not to know Jake. God she is good, even be
"Wow what a show", one of the guys laughs.Emily meets my eyes and I see the worry written all over her face. I simply shrug it off. Deep down inside I know it fucking hurt me to see him like that, it's something I will never admit to though.Instead I decide booze and fun is what I need right now. As I've already had three Tequila and four sour shots I decide to stick to beer now instead. One thing I always keep an eye on, is who is handing me my drink and watch it being poured. No way I am letting anyone drug me. Emily is already quite canned and enjoying a hot dance with James, making me chuckle. She knew exactly what she wanted and she's getting it. You go girl, I think to myself. Evans follows my view."You know, she might be the girly type wearing dresses and such stuff. But you are so damn hot, you don't need anything like that.""Evans are you just trying to woo me?" I laugh."Told you I wouldn't give up. And right now, I am certain to be quite wasted and unable to keep mysel
⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️AN: Trigger warning: This chapter might trigger you if you have been through abuse in any kind of wayStrong arms wrap around me, lifting me off the ground into a cab. His arms don't leave me and I am seated on his lap. Tears keep streaming down my face."I've got you Statement girl. We are taking you back home now, ok?" Evans whispers soothingly.I simply nod, while the sobs get even louder."Can you stay tonight Evans?", I hear Emi ask. "I don't know if I can handle this on my own. In all those years I've only seen her once like this and that was the night it all happened.""Don't worry as long as she needs me, I'll be right there."I hear him sigh loud. "I had no fucking idea.""She doesn't talk about this, she's been through hell because of it. And what you heard tonight is only a very small part of it.""Why didn't she mention she knows Jake?" He questions. "That's not for me to answer. You will have to ask her yourself and to be honest, I don't know if she is going to
Ok, how do I answer best to this question. Yes, I like to fuck around in between and have one-night stands wouldn't really help getting away from the image of being a whore. Which I'm definitely not. Evans doesn't seem to be the guy to judge people that fast and I still feel guilty not telling him about what happened with Jake this week. So, I guess sticking to the truth as answer is my best option."I hope you don't get me wrong for what I am about to tell you now and besides Emi no one knows about this", his eyes are soft and full of curiosity."First of all, I hope you don't think bad about me after what I am telling you now, but I want to answer your question truthful. As mentioned I lost my virginity that night. The moans, the smell, the touches just everything about it, is burnt into my soul. After everything that had happened I wasn't able to trust anyone and didn't want to either. Two years ago, I started working in a pub in a nearby town. I did notice I still feel attractio
Looking in the mirror, it tells me I had definitely been crying way too much during the weekend. My eyes still look puffed and underlined. So, I decide to use some concealer and a light make up to cover it up a bit. Fuck I am not going while looking like some sort of zombie, on my first day at college.While pouring myself some coffee and putting some scones into the oven, Emily enters the kitchen."Fuck, you are wearing make up?", she exclaims baffled."Oh, this girl has her eyes already open, even without a coffee in her hand", I answer sarcastically."Have you slept at all? You still look like shit."Yeah thanks for pointing that out, the mirror told me the same. "Has anyone ever told you, sometimes it's better to keep your bloody mouth shut?""Yep, billions of times", she chuckles innocently while taking her cup of coffee I made her."Doesn't seem to have helped", I roll my eyes.We have a quick breakfast, before leaving way earlier than needed but I don't want to be late on my
At half past five Evans knocks at the door. Seeing as we work at the same place, we decided we could just as well walk there together.His eyes scan me, and a smirk appears on his face. "What's wrong with you today? No statement on your shirt?"I am wearing plain light blue skinny jeans and a plain white tank top. It's definitely very unusual for me."Yeah, I thought I wouldn't start to piss people off or scare the shit out of them on my first day at work. Anyways I might get more tips if I am not wearing something with like FUCK OFF on it", I shrug it off making Evans laugh lowly. "Besides some might be frightened enough by all my tatts.""Doubt it. Most of us are wearing tatts in there. But none of us are looking so damn hot with it."His words as so often make me blush. "Yeah right, you trying to impress your new colleague already. Think about it differently, it always depends on the point of view.""What the hell do you mean? Ah wait I get it, I am tall and can look right into you
Still a little drowsy, I thankfully take my coffee from Emily. I know there are many people out there who jump out of bed early in the morning, happy and wide awake. Well, I definitely don't belong to one of those people. I'm more like WTF it's way too early, let me sleep. As I never sleep good at night, it just kind of makes it worse in the morning. Without my coffee, I'd probably die or be grumpy the rest of the day. Emily wants to know everything about my first day at work, and I tell her everything, of course also mentioning Jake, while munching down my frosties."He left with two?" She gasps."Yep, such an idiot. And I really don't understand those girls.""Maybe they know of his qualities, I mean after what you told me," she trails off."Oh fuck, shut up. I wish that night had never happened."Well at least not with Jake, the night was great.******Entering the class, fucking Jake is already seated at his place looking quite dishevelled. I decide to have some fun and let my ba