Chapter 42

Fears

Santi picked up Callar and hugged him tightly. I can't look at them directly. My chest tightened at the sight of them. I want to reach out to pat my son's back who is crying so hard but Santi is already doing it.

"Where have you been?! I waited for you!" Callar cried.

Santi is whispering things to him I can't understand. I couldn't take it anymore and I came closer and rubbed my son's back and tried to calm him. Santi didn't even move when I approached. They were focused on each other.

I tried to suppress my tears once again as I looked at them. I never thought this would happen. I was so prepared and sure Santi would never know about our child. Seeing this hurts me. Not for myself but for both of them. I have been so selfish, I know.

I held Callar's back as I whispered my apologies. I just realized how selfish my decisions were. I di