April 6

Dad usually takes a ride to get me lunch whenever he feels like I am very pissed. After the incident that happened on the second of April everything changed. He didn't look at me as often as I wanted and he was serious when he told me I was no longer a part of the agnostic club. It was a shock to me when he raised his voice and banished me from the group I was starting to see as my home. Banishment meant I no longer had the easy pass to attend any of their meetings. It meant there was nothing I shared with Rita, Stacy and him. 

I felt totally useless today as I remembered the picture he was burning. I felt totally shaken as I remembered the dream I had on the fourth of April. I know I spent a great deal of time on the month of March writing long meaningless entries because it meant a lot to me. March was a month where I was hoping my silent march to a new dawn would finally be made possible but as they say, you never can tell when your bell is up. You never can tell when