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May 26
I was facing him, then he sank to my knees and told me to stand up.
"Jesus Christ," I moaned. "What are you doing here? I thought you were dead. I should have known this would happen." I clenched my hands in front of him as I watched him wave his hands with his eyes closed.
"I am not dead," Danny said. "I went for a walk towards the other side and I have seen great things. I thought you would like to join me. All my life, I have always felt sick. And if I didn't feel sick, I always felt all alone. Now I have been to the other side of the world, I am glad to say that I have found a way to express myself."
"What are you talking about, Danny?"
"Did you ever care about me, Perer? You just left for Enugu without informing me of your departure. Why did you go away without taking me with you?"
"Danny," I inhaled slowl
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