Chapter 7 Pregnant

Anita Pov...

AFTER TWO MONTHS…

"Hey! Anita, what's happening to you, you always feel sleepy! Get up and we need to eat our lunch!" My friend Missy pleaded.

"You should go. I'm still sleepy. I want pancakes with my Choco ice cream on top and a tub of rocky road if you don't mind." I mouthed still plopping on my desk.

"Again! The other day and yesterday we ate that." Her hysterical response while raising her eyebrows reaching the tenth floor again. 

"I don't know what's wrong with me Missy, I'm always craving pancakes and ice cream! Foods that I don't usually eat." I felt weird, but shrugged it off. Maybe it's time to change as well.

"That's why you look fat, but your cravings are weird. Sometimes I think you're pregnant." She said bringing me back to my senses. Why I didn't think of the consequences? Now that she said that it reminded me of the night I lost something.

"Missy!" I bolted awake, staring at her. She almost dropped her purse shocked at my outburst.

"What? You're scaring me, Anita!" She burst as well. Well, it would be scary if my hunch was true.

"What if, I'm pregnant? What will I do?" I ask scared trying to suppress my tears.

"What? How in the world you'll end up pregnant when you don't have a boyfriend and Erik never touches you!? Anita, what scheme are you trying to imply?" She asks confused. Yeah, I don't have a boyfriend but one night I was a crazy idiot going to a bar and lost myself and became pregnant!

"Missy, I'm really scared I need your help. I need to know if I'm really pregnant or not. I need to hide before daddy finds out and throws me out of the family." I cried pleading with her. She was clueless and dumbfounded staring at me.

"Are you sure about that? Being pregnant without a man? Anita, please don't fuck me like this!" She cried not wanting her drama.

"I'm not joking Missy! Please!" I cried helplessly and really scared. She looks at me in disbelief.

"Sssshh! Okay, don't cry. I will help you, but tell me what exactly happened!" She asked hugging me. I cried in her embrace to relieve my sorrow. She didn't ask anything and held my hands as we walked out of the office. I know she is watching me but my mind is wandering elsewhere. The worries if I'm pregnant and how to survive this. I didn't mean to be a disappointment to my family but if already happened. 

After we buy some food I wanted to eat we stop by any drug store nearby to grab a pregnancy kit. I bought three sets to use. I'm hoping I am not pregnant but what if I am? What should I do now? Questions run through my head over and over again until we reach our building.

"Okay Anita, go the restroom and check while I bring our food into my office. I will come back in a few minutes." She uttered before leaving me agitated as I entered the restroom. I sighed deeply before squatting to pee on the pregnancy kit I was holding. Please, this must be negative. I prayed before speaking on the kit.

My heart almost stopped to see it was two red lines. I don't know how long I squatted crying inside when Missy came knocking on every cubicle.

"Anita!"

"Anita, where are you?" She calls again keeping on pushing every door until she stands up to where I am stuck.

"Anita!" She called calmly. I opened the door and burst out crying. She looks at me pitifully and solitary.

"Anita!" She beeps kneeling in front of me. I showed her the pregnancy kit and she was stunned and shaking holding the kit.

"It's positive! How did you get pregnant?" She asks trying to contemplate. I shake my head not yet ready to open up. My mind is telling me how to escape this misery I am in.

"What should I do now Missy? Can I abort it!" I ask her without thinking properly.

"What? Anita, that's the last thing you will ever do. This child has a life ahead and whatever you think and feel, the baby knows. This will be the last time you will ever say that." She warned me. I'm sorry!

"I'm sorry! I just don't know what to do. What will I tell my family? This is unacceptable and disappointing.

"Say sorry to your child Anita! Please spare this baby from any of your ill plans. I am his fairy godmother. We will protect him." She instigated, blowing my head not to think any shady but to think of a better one for us.

"How did you know this is a he?" I ask wiping my tears still sniffling.

"I can feel it, Anita. While your belly is still flat we should think how to tell your father or what should we do?" She lightened up. Thank goodness she was my friend or else I'm on a deep shit right now. How could I think of killing my own flesh?

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry for thinking of killing you! I'm really sorry!" I muttered caressing my belly. Missy smiled at me and helped me get out of the cubicle. I throw the pregnancy kit in the trash bin.

"I will always be here to help you, Anita. Don't forget that. This baby is a blessing." She continued to shower me with good words to forget of getting rid of the baby. 

"I'm sorry for thinking of that. I won't Missy. Maybe, I should think of having a vacation or tour for a while to be out of my father's sight." I muttered assuring her I would not ever think of abortion again.

When we reached the office, we didn't talk about my pregnancy and we started to much our food. While eating I couldn't stop to shed a tear thinking how can I be a mother? I didn't know I almost ate the tub of one-liter ice cream. Missy didn't stop me as she knew I was sad and this was the only way to relieve my sadness for the moment.