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Cole's P.O.V.
We drive into the school parking lot and sit in the car.
I am so nervous. I just want to break down and cry, I want to tell Xavier to watch out, I want to tell him everything, but he has too much to worry about right now, I wouldn't want to put more stress on him.
"Cole, you seem really nervous, why?" He speaks, with doe eyes and eyebrows knitted together.
"I'm not, it's okay." I reply, not looking at him. I may have been too blunt.
"Is it me?" He softly asks. A hint of sadness in his tone.
"What, no of course not." I reply, still not looking at him. I can't bring myself to. Keeping secrets from him is too much for me to bear. What a fucking coward I am.
My sight becomes blurry, warm tears roll down my cheeks as my jaw clenches along with my fis
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