His Feelings

PHILIP'S POV

"where have you been going to all this time?" Miss Sarah asked the moment I stepped inside my room.

"outside, I just bought some painting" I answered casually.

She doesn't know anything about Amelia but I am planning to tell her.

"painting? you already bought a lot" she answered. She looks so frustrated.

I opened the empty room which is supposed to be the room where I paint but then I lost my interest on it years ago already.

I placed the painting beside many paintings which I bought from Amelia.

It is not true that my cousin bought it. It was me all along.

I told her that I will help her from her financial problems but she don't want to. She won't accept the money. She said that she will do it, she said that she will earn the money and support herself.

I was so frustrated that's why I decided to just buy her paintings and I know that she won't accept it if she knew that it's just my way on helping her. That's why I don't want her to paint hard things, I just kept on telling her to paint simple things.

"who is it? is it a girl?" Miss Sarah asked. Without me noticing, she's already at my back.

"yeah" I answered.

She quickly stood in front of me as if she's too excited to hear my story.

"okay okay, I'll tell you" I answered.

I told her about Amelia and she was smiling the whole time.

"you like her" she said after it.

"do I?" I asked. She nodded.

I thought about it over and over again. I thought about it the whole night.

Upon thinking, I realized that I really like her.

Really.

Even without enough sleep, I quickly woke up and fixed myself. It's another day and I can't wait to see her again.

I dressed up like how I dressed up for her, I don't like her to know that I'm a Prince, she might get uncomfortable.

After fixing myself, I got down on the kitchen and fetched some bread and a jar of milk plus I told Miss Sarah to prepare some waffles with maple syrup. She said yes right away without second thought.

She said that she'll help me to get Amelia's heart.

I won't confess to Amelia, I'll just let her feel it.

Actions speaks louder than words.

Plus, she might feel uncomfortable when she knew that I like her.

I sat in the table where we're going to have breakfast. In a royal family, things like this happen.

Dad of course looked at me with judging eyes.

"why are you wearing those? you are a Prince, why don't you act like one?" Dad pointed out. Now, it's my clothing.

It's Mom who answered ,"let him be, Hon. He knows what he's doing"

I looked at Mom and she just winked at me.

My little sister put a strawberry on my table. She can't speak properly yet.

"thank you, my princess" I pinched her nose.

She just gave me a sweet smile.

After the breakfast, I quickly go to Miss Sarah and she handed me a paper bag.

I smelled it and I can smell the maple syrup.

Mom suddenly came from nowhere and here I am hiding the paper bag.

I am so nervous as ever while she's walking towards me. I looked at Miss Sarah and she just smiled there.

She picked up two apples from the box of apples and put it in the paper bag which I tried so much to hide.

"get that girl, Son" she cheered me up. I looked at Miss Sarah and she just shrugged.

"Miss, you told my Mom?" I asked. I heared Mom laughed.

"don't scold your Nanny. I heared you two talking and talked to her after that to confirm it. My son is already a grown up man, I believe in you. Just go pursue her" she said.

My heart feels more at ease now.

AMELIA'S POV

"come back, Amelia. Please" Mom begged while she's on her knees. My tears keeps on escaping my eyes as I pull her from the floor but she won't stand up.

"just please come back" she begged while still on her knees.

"As much I as I want to go back, I don't want to suffer from you again" I cried. I didn't even tried to hide the truth, I didn't even tried to hide my tears.

"please, just please come back my daughter" she said again while kneeling.

Early in the morning and she knocked in my door, I opened the door and she hugged me which is at my shock never happened before.

And here she is, crying and begging me to come back.

I mean, for what?

"Mom, I have already forgave you and my brother but I don't want to suffer from the two of you again. I don't want to go back to the place where I have been hurt the most. I won't ever go back the place that drained me so much" I cried.

They have already abandoned me so what are all this for?

He face changed from very gentle to very scary. She stood up, wiped away her tears and at my shock, she slapped me in the face with full force.

"your heart is like a rock. Now I know why your father chose to leave you" she said and slapped me one more time with tears flowing from her eyes as well.

I touched my cheeks as it starts to hurt like it burns.

"from now on, I won't ever beg you again" she left and slammed the door.

I sat there and cried.

Am I wrong for not going back? is it my mistake that Dad chose to run away?

When my heart feels heavy, there's a place where I go to.

I left the shop and walked. My feet have brought me to a field where no one lives. There's one three in the middle of nowhere and that's where I sat down.

I cried and cried and screamed everything. No one's going to hear me anyway.

At least here I can let out everything without any judgements.

PHILIP'S POV

I kept on knocking on her door but she's not responding.

Her neighbor got out again and said that she left while crying.

My heart felt heavy by the thought of her crying. What happened?

I searched for her over and over again but I can't find her.

Where could she be? I'm going crazy.