She just rejected me; again.
So with the ache deep in my heart, kicking my own fucking ass for falling all over, I find myself wandering to the kitchen to get a bottle of whiskey to settle in with tonight. Guess being rejected twice does bring the clarity to a man that he should be feeling defeated by now.
So yes, I am defeated and rejected.
Why did I have to be so fucking stupid?
But fucking stupid is me next to answer the door as someone starts to persistently buzz at it. As I swing it open, my heart misses a near damn beat as I see her standing in front of me.
‘Princess.”
"Don't get too excited Colton, I forgot my phone in your room."
She immediately walks past me, as she brushes past me, I gently pull her arm closer, “Please just hear me out.." I slowly draw her to the lounge and sit her door on the couch next to me. "Princess, I love you."
I am on my next to my princess, declaring a love that I know is beyond compa
Trinity sent me a message last night after she stormed out of here, but I never returned one. Well, she sent me half a sentence; I honestly thought that she was playing with me, so I did not bother to answer.I am mad, and my heart is broken…again.How do you return to your life after something like this? What do I do with my life now? What do I do with myself now? I am a broken, messed up man.So I reach in my pocket for my phone, hoping that Trinity has changed her mind. There is nothing.Why the fuck am I still holding on when she has told me on so many occasions now that it was a mistake, that it was over?I need to get away from this. I decided to give Mason a call."Hey, Mason.""Hey, Colton.""Do you want to meet at the pub for a few?""Of course, see you in half an hour."If anyone can make sense of anything, then it is Mason. So half an hour later we meet at a pub down the road from me."So,
Last night was torture as she ran circles through my mind as I sought the comfort of my bed. Never has one woman consumed my dreams in total ecstasy yet bringing me pain at the very same time. I could almost feel her delicate fingers running down my sculpted. She laid spread over my body in nothing but red and black lace, but yet all there was is an empty space that is only meant for her.So with what can only be described as endless hours, I have been counting the seconds as they crawled in anticipation; I find myself sitting with an eager finger wanting to send her a message. I have never felt so much nervousness creep up my spine. My heart will simply fall into an abyss if she refuses me again. But even if she does, I will not give up until I have her in my arms once more. She has become my now, my present; she is the driving force that will determine what I do next.Ya, I do not fucking listen.So before I can get my ass into any deeper trouble, the boys and
Trinity is driving me fucking insane. She is everywhere! She is like the song to a thousand melodies as I repeat the beauty of her name over in endless circles of my tortured mine. Never, not even before, has she captive my soul in such a way. I am simply falling apart without her in my life. It kills me over in agony to think how much longer we are going to play this game. This is not so much of a game for me, but yet I think that it is one for her and one that she is enjoying playing far too much. What else is not a game is the loneliness. I cannot bear to be in one minute of silence in my own company anymore. So I make my way to the kitchen to pour myself a very early morning whiskey. As I wall back into my black leather couch, the irises of my now bleeding eyes are scanning my phone, yet there is no message from Trinity. So here I find myself as I fall back into my black leather chair once again, the irises of my now bleeding eyes are scanning my
I thought I saw her this morning. In the crowd, she was standing with hot cocoa that she bought from the corner shop. As I came up to her, it was not her. Was I disappointed or not? I don't know.It has been a week since things have finally been over between Trinity and me. I am back in the business. I feel, in a strange way, alive. That suit that I did not want to define me. It has defined me, and yes, I like it.Do I miss my life with Trinity? Of course, I do, every day.I truly hope that whatever she is doing that she is doing well. She should have her ceremony any day soon now. Well, I hope she is going to be great. The woman turns anything into good that she touches, well, apart, just not me. Guess I am that one thing that would have always have gone wrong in her life.So tonight, I need to have to go to some charity function with Raven as, not only as her plus one but also as her protection. There is a part of me that is feeling so goddamn guilty go
It is with frozen eyes that I keep my eyes on the knob of the front door.Surely Mason will not be this brave and walk in when he knows I am going to fucking get laid by another woman. Or perhaps he is doing me a favor, stopping me from making a big mistake. Yes, I fucking want Candice, my desire is aching, and I am throbbing to be touched by a woman. Trinity fucking torturing my mind, and I am about two seconds away from being with another woman.My finger has been burning that speed dial, and god, this is the closest that I have come to it in days. So Mason better has a good excuse, for in just about…one…two…three…That front door flings open.“Trinity!”Well, I guess there goes my evening with Candice.But the biggest question is, “Trinity, what are you doing here?”She looks at me from underneath those goddamn fluttering eyelashes and softly whispers, “Oh, daddy passed out,
Sometimes the moments that you are the most frightened of are the moments that feel right. So before she can disappear out that door completely and leave me alone, I pull her gently by the arms and lead her back to the bedroom,"Princess, I am not a man of many words. So please excuse me if I get this wrong.""Colton, what is wrong?""Please, please just listen to me, please just listen until I am done."I shift but a fraction even closer than what could even be possible and take her soft hands into mine. My trembling hand that right now wish that I could just fall into an abyss and disappear. But I can do this; I have played this moment in my head over and over now for days.So here it goes."Princess, until I saw you first, love, at first sight, was just an overrated phrase for me.When I saw you, I fell in love, and you smiled because you knew.From the moment we first met to this day, if there is one thing that has always b
…Trinity POV…In front of me, I have Colton on his knees.Who is more scared at this very moment is left to be seen. But apart from the fear of the unknown, not knowing what to say next, I know that there is only one thing in life that I care about the most.And that is Colton.So I gently take his face between my hands and whisper to him,"Now it is your turn to keep quiet."With one deep, swallowed breath, I find the words that have never been so easy to roll from my lips."Colton, you are the only precious thing in my life.I hold close to my heart. There's no moment that I don't think about you. I've always wished to experience that kind of love shown in movies, not knowing I was a step closer to experiencing it. It's so great to finally have someone as beautiful as you are to enjoy life with. You're my push, my strength, my best friend, and my fighter. You've seen me at my worst and terrific moments and watch
I need to stop for one moment and take a step back, for beyond all the craziness that fill our lives, I need to allow myself to remember what drives. What makes this all worthwhile is the beauty that stands in front of me. Should I not have had her presence in my life, I would not have had the sheer willpower to take the impossible on. To have beauty in your life is easy, but to have the beauty of the woman that you love and the one that loves you in return is the greatest gift that one can experience. I can, with all honesty, say that there is no doubt that she completes my life. To be lonely for eternity can be seen as a life sentence, but having what you crave, is the greatest blessing. I have never been more assured to have chosen her to be mine for life. I promise her my deepest love, my fullest devotion, my tenderest care through the pressures of the present and the uncertainties of the future. I commit myself to love her. I know that our love is heaven sent, a