Chapter 47

They say that the new year means a new beginning, a new life, and everything new, and I am hoping that it is true because honestly, I want a change in my life. I am tired, I am so tired of the kind of life that I have. I also want to experience a better life, even just a little!

Several days have passed since the new year began, and several days have passed since I cried that night instead of yelling because of happiness. Several days have passed since I have been fighting my anxiety and depression, and I can only say that it really sucks and is hard.

It is so hard to fight depression and anxiety because you are your own enemy. Your own feelings are your enemy.

Several days have passed, but the pain is still here. Pain because I saw him kissing that sweet-smelling girl, and pain in the feeling of being alone even though grandma is here.

I do not know why I feel this way, but maybe it's because ever since grandma became forgetful, she forgets about me. She forgets to ask how I am, to s