And then, like last time, my sister’s trusting, innocent and loyal face flashed before my eyes and I glanced at the photo of us hugging on my desk. I thought of her phone call, how terribly Patrick had wrecked her. Would I suffer the same fate?I hoped not, but I’d probably deserve it.I wasn’t a good person. I knew that already. I had made a lot of mistakes in my life, some I probably would never be able to make right. So in spite of my protesting, traitorous, weeping vagina, I opened up my e-mail.From Patrick,I’d use some serious profanity here but you’re lucky my company has a filter. I also don’t want to threaten you, because I know you and you’d end up using it your advantage and I believe I’ve given you enough ammunition.I’m just letting you know that, in spite of your crazy and presumptuous delusions, I will not be going to dinner with you tonight. I will meet you for coffee sometime to talk like adults when you’re ready to do so. That’s it. Let me know when you’re available
I’d drunk enough to give me some courage, and though the cold prickly feeling coursing through my veins told me it wasn’t enough, it had to be done.“Is that what you’re doing to Chloe?” I asked quietly, staring into his green eyes intently.He grimaced and put down his fork. “Fuck, Nina, Chloe has nothing to do with this.”“She has everything to do with this. She’s my sister and your ex-wife. She divorced you. You must be angry, and I can understand that, and I think you’re probably using me to get back at her. It’s not fair to any of us, and I don’t want to be a part of it. I’m sorry. We had a great ... an amazing night. Thank you so much for it and—”“Shut up, Nina.” He was annoyed. “Yeah, she divorced me. I wasn’t around anymore. Do you know why? Because I didn’t care. I gave up. I didn’t love her and I couldn’t pretend as well as she could.”I cringed hearing those words, remembering my sister’s sobs as she wondered why over and over again Patrick shut her out their last year.“I
I thought of Chloe, too. Her tears, her confusion. I wondered if I’d ever be able to look her in the eye again, and if I could, what kind of person that made me? Would I ever be able to forget this whole experience? Would I want to?I should have said no. I wanted to be able to say it. The word, however, was foreign to me in Patrick’s apartment. I knew when we left that restaurant ... well, truthfully I knew from the first kiss, that I couldn’t say no to him. I simply didn’t want to.Just one more night, I told myself. I’d force myself to forget all of this afterwards.So I stared boldly back at him as I inclined my head, my lips parting to meet his. Surprisingly he was tentative at first; in spite of his smug exterior he must have been at least partly prepared for me to waltz out of his apartment.Quickly he amped up his passion, however, and we were engaged in the most erotic but simple kiss of my life. His lips against mine, the gentle but experienced nudging of his tongue and his
Moving closer to him on my knees, I let his cock just rub against the softness of my cheek. He actually gasped at the sensation. Apparently he was paying more attention to my hair than to my actions. Now those green eyes were on mine again, listening to what I was telling him with my fixed and promised gaze. Those gorgeous lips spread open. I guess I shocked him for the second time that night. First, I stayed and encouraged the encounter, and now I was going to give him a blowjob.My pink tongue slipped slowly out of my mouth and I licked my lower lip with it. He moaned at the image and softly put his hand on my other cheek, the one that wasn’t covered by his cock and pre-cum. His thumb stroked the satiny skin beneath my eye.Finally I let my tongue tickle his head, swiping it back and forth slowly and lightly. A delicious sound came out of him and he pushed forward. I pulled my head and mouth back just a bit and smirked, shaking my head. The message was: this is my show; your cock is
We watched one another as his cock thrust its way inside me, my incredible wetness still resisting him slightly. I guess my body was giving a little fight of its own, but of course Patrick won. He was finally completely and deeply inside, and his beautiful face smiled contentedly as his forehead rested on mine.At first it was slow and incredibly arousing. He’d push forward and rest inside for a few moments, quietly taking me in with his eyes and body, before leisurely pulling out. Then he’d give me a fast and harsh thrust for good measure, just to remind me who I was dealing with.It wasn’t long before the lust overflowed and took us over, and his fucking grew purposeful and quick. His eyes clenched shut as he moved against me. My own body helplessly rose up to meet his heavy waves.We made dreadful sounds, but everything that came out of Patrick’s throat was delectable to my ears. For an instant coherent—and frightening—thoughts came to me, like how I wanted to do this all the time,
Plus I wasn’t exactly sure what to do with myself. Was I supposed to leave? He’d driven us there so I had no way to get home, but I could call myself a cab. Deciding to wait a bit, I pulled my shirt on and slipped out into the kitchen.I was thirsty and a little hungry so I peeked in the fridge. Pretty empty, except for some cheese. I saw milk, double-checked the date (though Patrick didn’t strike me as the kind to keep spoiled milk in the fridge), and poured myself a glass of it.It wasn’t until I replaced the milk and shut the fridge that I noticed it. Patrick had a dozen or so photos and papers up on the refrigerator door, but now I saw one partially covered that made my heart stop. I recognized it. Carefully I pulled it off and looked closer at it. It was a picture Chloe had in their living room because it was the only one of the three of us where I was actually smiling, and she and Patrick looked so loving and happy. It was taken not too long before they were married.But now I n
I went about my business, desperate to drive out the memories of his tongue, the exact shape and texture of his cock, the feeling of him making love to me and the horrendous guilt which continued to simmer in my stomach. Nothing I tried worked and I became dreadfully distracted and irritable. I was haunted day and night, but especially at night.Chloe and I only talked on the phone once. It was a short chat. She complained about work, asked me how I was doing, and then had to go. She was testing out another date.“Are you okay?” she asked me before hanging up. “You sound off.”“I’m fine,” I said, not sounding it at all, even to my own ears.What else could I say? I sound off because I fucked your ex-husband, the man you’re still in love with?“Are you sure?” Chloe sounded skeptical. “You have a weird tone.”Thankfully her date rang her bell before I had to answer and she hung up. She texted me later to tell me he was a loser. She didn’t make mention of my tone again, thank God.The gu
I exhaled slowly. “I’m so sorry. How come you didn’t tell me? How come Chloe didn’t tell me?”Patrick looked at me with confusion. “Why would she know? And I wanted to call you but my mother has been inconsolable so I’ve been taking care of everything. I had to fly out to California for a few days. There just wasn’t any time and ... I didn’t really want to explain over the phone.” He looked around my cold and shabby hallway. The paint on the walls was peeling and a light flickered obnoxiously above us. “I didn’t really want to tell you here, either.”“I’m sorry,” was all I could say.“I still should have called or texted,” Patrick added, smiling a little again, albeit sadly. “That was inexcusable. I can’t imagine what was going on in that little over-analytical head of yours.”“Patrick, your father died. It’s okay. I’m sure I was the last thing on your mind.”He stepped closer so my back was against the wall and his body hovered over me. “You were usually the only thing on my mind.”“