107: Protocol

Dana

My heart almost stopped when I heard the news.

I couldn't imagine a world where Jeremy wasn't present. Guilt overwhelmed me for not having been good to him. I never treated him badly, but I failed him several times because of my stupid feelings. I deceived him lied to him and almost used him unintentionally to forget about Demian. That was the guilt that was eating me up: having used him. He gave me his heart, and I wasn't able to give him the same in return. Jeremy always hoped to be loved by me, but I could never give him that satisfaction. I gave him headaches, but not the kind of love he asked for.

Jeremy was a light in that dark tunnel I plunged into when Demian kicked me out of the house and abandoned me. He helped me so much not to give up when I wanted to give up everything. I needed him to wake up so I could give him what he always wanted. He couldn't leave this world without giving me the opportunity to love him. I regretted so much the time I wasted dwelling on Demian