61: We don't have time

Demian

Things weren't going well between Rachel and me.

Who would have thought our problems would start after we got married?

During the months we had a beautiful and passionate relationship, but once we married, the problems began. Rachel was a complicated and immature person. I hadn't realized that before. Or maybe I did, but my emotions of anger and resentment made me believe that Rachel was the perfect woman for me, and now I see she isn't. We had stupid arguments all the time, but it might have to do with what happened with Dana the other night.

I returned home because my son wouldn't stop crying for me to come back, but I told Rachel we wouldn't sleep in the same bed until she apologized to Dana. It was also an excuse not to sleep with her, as ever since I realized how confused I was, I felt repulsed sleeping next to her.

I haven't been doing things right. For a long time, I thought my life was on track because I had pushed Dana out of it, but now my heart kept calling Dana back