Chapter 4

The next morning I catch up to talk to him before he left for their honeymoon.

"Alpha. I am not here to beg anymore. I just need one favor for my wolf. I need to talk to Atlas"I say and he nodded without a thought.

Seconds later his eyes started glowing bright yellow, almost golden.

'To what do I owe the pleasure?'he says his voice deep and thunderous.

'I want know if you are aware of his rejection' I say.

'Yes Little mate. I am already bonded to Sansa and I love her. I am sorry this had to happen. Tell Averia I am really sorry' he says and something in me dies.

'okay. Can I speak to Zander now' I say and he nodded. Few seconds later Zander came back.

"Do you have your answer now"he says softly.

"Yes"I let out a breath and looked at him straight in the eyes.

"I, Crystalise Gun, accept your rejection"I say and he stumbles back a little.

He looks at me in shock and surprise. As if he didn't expect me accept it.

I turned and walked away from him and everything that has to do with him.

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They left for their honeymoon and I returned back to my routine.

I grow thinner and weaker each passing day and mom is beginning to worry.

I always tell her I am fine but I know deep down she can feel my pain.

Today she has sent me on an errand. She asked for me to pick up my dad's birthday cake from the pack house.

I can't believe two months have already passed and dad is celebrating his birthday again.

Crystal will be back today with an 'exciting news' as mom said.

This place is awfully quiet today,most of the time the pack house is noisy as fuck.

I picked up my dad's cake and made my way out but stopped in my tracks when I saw beta Darius entering the house.

"Crystalise. What a lovely surprise"he with an awfully wide smile.

"Beta Darius. I was just on my way leaving. I came to pick up my dad's gift.

"Oh, you can't just leave like that. Come on let's have a drink"he says stepping closer to me.

"I...I don't think that is a good idea. My mom is waiting for me"I tell him.

"Oh it is just drink Crystalise. I don't bite"he says softly and I sigh.

"Okay fine but only one"I say and he nodded.

He leads the way into the pack bar and went behind the counter.

"What can I get you my lady?"he smiles.

"A shot of tequila,raw"I say sitting on the stool.

"Wow... anything the matter?"he asks.

"Just life"I shrug.

I turns to face me a few seconds later and handed over the shot to me.

"Tell me about it"he raises his glass and so did I.

I took the shot in one goal.

"Want another?"he asks and I nodded.

Before I realized I was on fourth shot and drunk out of my mind.

"Crystalise,has anyone told you how beautiful you are. Those pretty brown eyes just like the earth"he says

Okay,this is my clue to leave.

I need to mindlink my brother to come pick me up.

"I....I...I think I should...leave"I slur my words and hiccups.

"Not yet Crystalise. You know,you really fascinate me. I really fancy you, you've been on my  mind lately, with that soft pink lips...."he say his fingers trailing my bottom lips.

I swing by head to side and tried to stand up but lost my balance and almost fell down but he held me against him.

I can feel his groin against me.

"Please let me go. My mom is waiting for me"I beg

"I can't do that. I really need to feel you against me."he says and kisses my neck.

I tried to hit him but he was stronger and bigger than me.

An idea came into my head,

"Don't even try to mind link anyone. It isn't going to work. The drink you just drink shut off all your senses. You are mine tonight Crystalise"he says and now I broke down in tears.

"Please, please, please,don't do this to me. I am begging you"I pleaded.

But everything fell on deaf ears when I feel him rip off my shirt.

He pushes me onto the floor and continued his assault.

I tried to fight,I really did but it was all in vain.

That day he took away my innocence,my dignity,my pride.

I lost myself that day.

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"Are you okay Crystalise?"my brother asks for second time today.

"Yes I am fine"I tell him quietly.

"Are you sure? Something is off with you"he says looking at me skeptically.

"I am fine"I say and he kept quiet and we continue to finish the decorations.

Minutes later the house was full with guests and friends.

My sister and Zander had arrived and they looked so happy and cozy.

I smile sadly, I am going to really miss them once I am out of this place.

I hope mom and dad will forgive  me for being a disappointment.

"We have an announcement. Everyone please gather around"dad announces.

Everyone moved forward,but I remained behind.

My nightmare was with them,he stood there as if he wasn't a monster.

"Thank you all for making it to my birthday party. As much as it is my birthday,I like to announce this,I got the greatest gift today. My daughter and her husband,Alpha Zander,are expecting their first child, my first grandchild and the future alpha of this pack"my dad says happily.

That was it for me. I had enough reason to go on with my decision. No one will miss me. My family are happy without me.

I smile sadly and slowly retrieved back to my room.

Took a pen and paper and wrote and apology letter for my parents and brother.

I packed up a few things and my savings. I jump through my window and run through the woods.

Once I couldn't feel the connection with my family anymore,I stopped.

'we'll be okay Ria.No one can hurt us again' I tell my wolf.

'okay' she says weakly.

"I, Crystalise Gun, daughter of beta Zack Gun cut ties off with the White Moon Pack"I say and feel all links with the pack break.

I shifted into my wolf form and run into woods.

I hope a better life awaits me.