My jaw clenched as I stood near the door of the hospital room, watching Lexi and Luke. Oh, how I wished I'd flushed that coke when I had the chance now. But at the time, it had seemed like a good idea to hold onto it. I hadn't foreseen it spiraling into this—all-consuming fire that Luke was desperately feeding, just to stay afloat. The irony wasn't lost on me. I'd been down this road, had been that guy. Nearly overdosing, ending up in a hospital just like this one. I wanted to shake Luke, and scream at him to see where this path led. But my words would be debris in the tornado of his emotions. Luke was in a place where logic was a foreign language, and his suffering was the only dialect he understood. When Lexi had finally woken up, and Luke abruptly walked out, I knew exactly where he was headed. To numb himself. To escape the agonizing reality that he'd taken a life, his father's life, no less. Every step he took down that path, he took a part of us along with him. A part of me w
The knock at the door reverberated through the room, fracturing the moment. I knew that moment was over, a fragile hiatus swallowed whole by whatever was coming next. When the door opened and Clay's parents, Elena and Louis, walked in, a strange mix of emotions washed over me: nostalgia, regret, and an abrupt self-consciousness that made me want to disappear."I should probably go," I said, getting up, my eyes averted. Thankfully, the intensity of how much I took earlier had started to wane, and I was back steady on my feet. Before I could make it far, Elena closed the gap between us and surrounded me in a warm hug, her arms strong despite her years. "My goodness, Luke. You smell like you've been rolling in the woods for days. You need a shower," she said.Her words made me smile. How many times had I heard that from her growing up? A lot. Despite the hardships and tangles of my life, that simple memory made me realize I had also been blessed with a lot of good. Elena had always b
A sly grin crossed my lips as I looked at Clay and Luke, their post-battle disarray apparent in more ways than one. "You know, Elena wasn't lying when she said y'all needed a shower. And let's be honest, so do I. I think we should all freshen up."Clay chuckled, playfully saying, "I agree. I can smell him from over here."Luke leaned down, his eyes locking onto my toes. While still a bit discolored, the healing was evident. "Okay, I'm in," he conceded, "as long as you promise to stay seated on the bench in there."Luke's arms enveloped me, lifting me effortlessly from the counter and carrying me toward the bedroom. As we entered, his touch felt protective, almost reverent, as he helped me out of my clothes. A sense of vulnerability washed over me, but it was softened by the look in his eyes—gentle, caring, yet tinged with a melancholy I couldn't quite place.Once undressed, Clay swept in, his arms warm and sturdy as he lifted me up and carried me into the bathroom. Luke was already in
The sensation of waking up was disorienting. For a moment, I let myself savor the peace. Despite the chaos that had swallowed our lives, this small pocket of morning tranquility was like a hidden treasure. As my eyes fluttered open, I took in the sight before me: a human knot of limbs and torsos, woven so tightly it was hard to tell where one of us ended and the other began. Lexi was tucked safely between Luke and me, her head resting on my chest, while Luke's arm draped over both of us.The scent of breakfast wafted through the air, pulling me further out of my sleepy haze. It was a strong smell, loaded with bacon, scrambled eggs, and fresh coffee. I felt Lexi stir, the movement rippling through the tangle of bodies.Luke's eyes opened, meeting mine. "Wow," he said, grinning as he breathed in deeply. "How I've missed waking up to the smell of your mom's cooking.""Yeah," I said, feeling the corners of my mouth stretch into a smile. "Me too."As we extricated ourselves from the tangl
I was in the kitchen with Elena and Kyla, drying dishes and packing away leftovers. The guys found their way to the porch and were locked in playful jabbing, thankful for the relaxed atmosphere. "So, you guys want to go for a run?" Clay had suggested. A smirk danced on his lips, eyes twinkling like he was up to some mischief.Luke, his dark hair falling into his eyes, snorted. "What's the matter, feeling cooped up there, Alpha? Need to... release some energy?" No one missed the playful wink Luke shot Clay when he said it. "A run would do us all good," Louis chimed in, a barely veiled attempt to divert the conversation away from the direction Luke and Clay were about to take it. He accepted his son's relationship, but it was clear he didn't want to hear the details. "I swear I've got knots the size of golf balls all over," Clay remarked with a smirk, undeterred by his father's discomfort. Trevor smiled, undoubtedly relishing the odd dynamics bouncing between them, "And here I tho
The run had been invigorating, an ecstatic blur of speed, wind, and the primal joy that came with the shift. For the first time in years, I had Trevor running beside me. Louis, too. It felt like a reunion of souls, a moment of unspoken brotherhood we'd all longed for but never articulated. Yet, as the house came into view, a magnetic pull started to hum in the background of my thoughts. It whispered promises of relief and escape.The stash in the truck calling out to me like a siren song.I hesitated, torn. I had promised to turn over a new leaf, to be better. But the call was insistent, a dark melody woven into the very fabric of my being. With a sense of inevitability, I found my feet carrying me towards the truck. I was so engrossed in my internal struggle that I didn't even notice Lexi was outside, too.As I cut the powder into lines on the seat, my thoughts spiraled. "You idiot," I chastised myself. "A momentary high in exchange for what? Trust? Love? What's wrong with you?"I w
From the window, I watched Lexi struggle to guide Luke toward the front yard swing. Each step seemed laborious, a wobbly dance that seemed like it could collapse into chaos at any moment. There were a couple of times when I thought Luke would topple over, taking Lexi down with him, and I was ready to intervene.I could feel the anger building. I imagined Lexi's small frame crushed under Luke's weight, both of them getting hurt, and something clenched in my gut. The devastation that would wreak on Luke, already fragile and teetering on the edge, would be immeasurable. Far more damaging than any substance he was ingesting. A sigh of relief left my lips when Lexi finally settled him into the swing, her body acting like an anchor to his instability.Turning away from the scene, I faced Trevor. "Hey, you interested in going to your land? Clear your head a bit?""Yeah," he paused, looking at me, "but not alone. Not with everything that's going on right now."Louis chimed in, "We'll take him
Hand in hand with Clay, I looked at the old settler house before us. Its timeworn features whispered secrets of history I was still getting to know, each creaking floorboard and aged stone a testament to the long, complex legacy of the pack I'd joined. Yet, as I stood there, caught in the weight of that legacy, I couldn't shake the nagging sense that Clay and I were falling behind somehow.So much of our time and emotional energy had been channeled into helping Luke lately. Each moment spent worrying, strategizing, and just trying to keep him afloat felt like a small withdrawal from the emotional savings account Clay and I had. A nagging question loomed in my mind: Were we sacrificing our own relationship's growth for Luke's well-being?Finally, unable to contain it any longer, I turned to Clay. "I've been thinking... it feels like we've been so caught up in helping Luke that we might be neglecting us—our emotional connection. Do you feel that way?"He looked at me with those depthles