Loving Cousin

"I was scared it would change everything. I'd gotten so used to seeing myself a certain way and of dating a certain way that I couldn't even imagine any other way to be. Steph doesn't understand why what happened in Jamaica was such a big deal for me."

"You never told me what happened."

"I'd finally figured out what sex was about. When I was a virgin, sex was something I thought I had to let happen to me, not something I did for myself. The guy I met down there, he wasn't like the guys around here." She paused for a moment, lost in thought. "He was older."

"How much older?" I asked.

"Forty-five."

"Seriously? That's your Dad's age!" I couldn't even imagine finding someone that old attractive enough to have sex with them.

"He was so sweet, though, and divorced, lonely. He made me feel special, and let me be in charge of whatever we did together. He gave me permission to play and learn with his body. There was no rush and no pressure, unlike the assholes I'd dated."

"Did you fall in love