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One can never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something, one must build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete.
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Silas tucked the envelope back inside his pocket.
It was coronation day and he just finished announcing the consorts that he would be bringing with him back to the palace. He tried not to let Amara’s crestfallen expression get to him. He was doing amazing so far. Eleanor was too. They had already run through the plan for a week, and still, he felt anxious. Eleanor commended him over the plan, told him that it sounded amazing and smart. He was proud of it too, even though it was a last-minute thing.
His father won’t be too happy when he hears about it. However, he won’t. Silas had already prepared for that. A few weeks after the consorts sett
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