REGRETS

I laid on the sofa that night so frustrated at myself for letting things get this chaotic. how could i allow myself to fall in love with beth ?

i couldn't get the sight of her and lance out of my head. i wanted to go over there and drag him out of the house and beat the crap out of him. but , from where i was sitting it certainly appeared beth was co-operating fully. suddenly i knew i was going to be sick. i jumped up and ran to the bathroom, barely getting there in time.

I was restless all that night and awoke early the next morning. as i opened my eyes, my mind immediately went to work. did lance spend the night ? i think what really bothered me the most, was that beth had not even tried to contact me and try to explain. i got dressed and left for work.

Christmas was saturday, we were off on friday , which was christmas eve. jennifer's office party was thursday night at one of the five star restaurants in the french quarter. i left work early that thursday to make sure i was ready o