- HAZEL -I still can't sleep. This time, it's not insomnia or thoughts keeping me awake, nor is it the noise from the tv. I sigh, well, it partially is. Just knowing he'd rather stay up all night than join me crushes my soul. I'm not asking for anything intimate, even if I want that, just a hug will do. I sigh and rolled to the side, clutching my hands under my pillow. Although it's so tempting to want more. It's so tempting to be self centered just this once. My body folded and I wrapped my arms around each other. It's cold. His windows are open and I think he likes it this way, despite the curtains being pulled shut. I ran my eyes around his bedside. There's no clock or anything here and I'm not with my phone so I don't know what the time is, but I won't be surprised if it's a few minutes to five am. I am so fatigued but unlike before, I'm self cautious. Am I that bad to share a bed with? Or is this just his way of avoiding me?"Not tired yet?" I ask, murmuring. My voice quivere
- KILLIAN - My watched beeped. My alarm has rang for the fifth time since I snoozed it. It's afternoon yet Hazel is still fast asleep. I promised to bring her to her dorm by eight but I guess that's not happening. I leaned over my chair to stare at the body sleeping peacefully on my bed. I don't know what to think. A student in a professor's bed sure would be the talk of the decade if it got out. I sighed and leaned back, staring at the file I'm working on my desk. Is that what she is to me though? A student? I turned back to face her. I'm starting to fear and wonder if she means more. More than Kate. A grin formed on my face as I laughed. I don't know what to name what I have with Kate. I love her though. Very much. My eyes peered at the bump in the duvet of my bed where she lays. Hazel was in that room last night, I need to change the locks or at least block every bit of passage in there. My jaw tightened. I fear what would've happened if she actually saw something. I fear
- HAZEL - My neck hurts terribly. I don't know what Killian put there but the pain is unbearable. "Okay Kate, I appreciate the care but you can let go of me now." I forced a giggle. I'm trying to hide my tears from rolling down my cheeks. Seeing them together.... seeing her lean over to kiss him... watching him pull her closer and whisper in her ears just made me realise how hard it is to be around them. How much it hurts. Killian loves Kate and I can't do anything about it. I shouldn't. I really should put our first night behind us. It's the best thing to do obviously. Asking him to sleep with me? How selfish was that? She's literally my best friend. I sniffed. Kate didn't let go of my wrist so I forced my arm out of her grip and wiped my eyes gently with my fingers. "Hazel are you okay?" She asks, moving towards me. I really want to push her away but at the same time, I can't. It's not her fault that she smells like him or she's engaged to him. And it's definitely not her faul
- KATE -"This isn't part of what we agreed on, you shouldn't let her in. You shouldn't let anyone in. And in your room? What is wrong with you Killian?!" I ask, walking toward him from the door entrance. It is night. Once I was sure Hazel was fast asleep and no one would need me for anything throughout the night, I headed over to Killian's. Killian is playing with his zippo and as much as I hate to realise it, I feel like he's not even listening to me. Like he doesn't care about what I'm saying. "It doesn't mean anything, Kate." "Doesn't mean anything?" I stood in front of him and pushed his body to his side by his shoulder just so he stares at me. "Can you say that about everyone else involved? You know how dangerous it is for anyone to be around you." I argued. He knows that very well. I do too. Which is why I care about Hazel. He can bring any friend, be it man or woman but not her. Never her. She's my best friend and I'll hate it if something happens to her because of me. Beca
- HAZEL -I yawned. My eyes slowly drifted open and I swung my arm to the side a little. Ow! My neck still hurts from yesterday. I really hope the ache dies down soon. I rested my palm flat on my bed and pushed my body up to sit up straight. I was faced with confusion when I noticed the sheets. These aren't mine. I rub an eye with my fingers and yawn again. This time, my eyes are fully open. This is not my room either. Although it's the same architectural design, the decorations are different, down to the colour of the wall paint. Maybe I attended a sleepover that I'm unaware of? I can't really tell. Ugh, I feel like I got drunk again. I glanced at the chair by the side of the bed. Whoever's bed this is, the person must be lucky. I would kill to sleep at the bottom. On top of the chair is a bottle of water and a saucer covered with another saucer. Pasted on the top of the saucer is a post note with the writing 'Eat me'. I took the saucer on top of the other off and stared at wha
- KILLIAN - I have a meeting with S. Of course not a physical meeting but virtual, as usual. None of our faces will be shown during the meeting. It'll just be a blank screen where we both interact on my laptop. For personal reasons I don't use the laptop I use to do his deeds for anything else. S is too funny to actually be trusted. After the meeting today, I need to head back home to meet that rascal of a brother. A grin formed on my face as I adjusted my tie while standing in front of the mirror fully dressed in my white shirt, black suit pants with a black belt around my waist, black socks which are hidden in my shoes, cufflinks and my watch. My suit jacket is laying elegantly on my bed. I'm not getting dressed for the online meeting, I doubt that will be held today, I'm dressing up to leave the house to home. Just think about that rascal of a brother makes a half grin form on my face. I can't deny that I've missed his annoying ass. I miss his company. My life has been quite bl
- HAZEL -I'm stuck in a spot here. After my recent conviction, I finally know what to write in my book. I'm just writing my story in a third person's pov or narrative point of view, in my opinion, while switching a few things or making a few tweaks here and there. Trust me, it helps. I leaned my arms back a little for a stretch. I'm sat on my chair which is tucked in my reading table and working on this new hobby of mine. It actually is a relaxing way to pass time. I'm actually enjoying this. What I do not understand is how I'm stuck with a question mark in my story. Maybe just because even the author doesn't know what happens next. 'Is it 'Marriage rules and regulations' she read or is Elaine just stuck in her head again and imagining things?' I read the last few lines of the rough draft in my chapter. 'Or does Elaine want to believe there's a loop hole she's completely blind to which could make her act as she likes? Without any form of guilt? That's something she'll never know
- HAZEL -It's time for school again. Yesterday was the most fun day I had throughout this weekend. I had pizza and ice-cream and my roommates weren't even awake when I arrived back from the supermarket, leaving me with two large pizzas I couldn't finish of course. I needed to lick all the popsicles and walk back to the supermarket to return the ice cream but it was worth it, at least I had my money back, ate till I was full and felt like a ball, then slept like a baby just as I wanted. Plus, when I woke up, I still had a pack of pizza left and my roomies were present and awake. Kate was right, I shouldn't do things just because people want it, I needed to say my mind to them in the calmest and most reasonable way possible then we talked over my pizza and Savory ordered chicken wings and drinks. It was nice. Felt a lot like home. Now I'm on my bed, feeling all grumpy because today is Monday. Ugh, the weekend was so short. And so annoying. I twisted my head to the side. At least my