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There is always something to be thankful for . Be it something small or big or in between we need to be thankful. As a wife I am thankful for my husband. Even though he drives me mad and sometimes gets on my last nerve , I love him to bits with every fiber of my being .
He is my partner , lover and best friend .... above all that he is my teammate . If he hurts, I hurt ,if he's sad , I am sad too and if either of us is being attacked, we have each others backs.
As a mother ... my kids mean the world to me; they are my life and a reflection of both my husband and I.
If anyone hurt them besides going buck crazy and beating the living daylights out of anyone who so much as touches one hair on either of my kids heads . I will make sure they never come near my family ,I will not kill them but I will take the necessary steps to make sure they never touch my family again.
I always say ; people don't attack what they don't know. Information is always power , but you should always choose what you share and with who you share it with . Not everybody will be happy for you, and jealousy ...yes jealousy and lust are very ugly traits . If you struggle to mind your own business then you deserve to get lied to and trying to take what isn't yours will get you nothing. Learn to play the waiting game.When Timothy told us about the extent of the injuries Andy had... My heart broke and blew into a million pieces . First of all as a parent , I felt like I failed my son . I should have never left him this morning thinking his father and I were splitting up. I should have taken him with me .I didn't want our son to see me crying and I know showing emotions and explaining to kids what they are is important . Secondly I shouldn't have let Andrew go to his Grandfather the day before his Birthday cause Brent and me always baked a cake
ClaraThere is a certain feeling that comes with knowing something is been kept from you . Untold stories eventually get told and secrets no matter how deep or dark have a way of coming out.There is also a connection between untold stories and secrets. See ; secrets are untold stories that weren't told for fear of being judged , shamed , ashamed or losing someone or something. Sometimes...what is kept untold will get told creating some sort of balance. To appreciate the good , you have to go through the bad, and bad times don't last commitment does.To Brent emotions always equaled weakness. So when he cries in general , I know he is hurting deeply and regardless of how much self control he has, when it rains it storms . He keeps a lot to himself and I have learned to play the waiting game but more importantly as his partner in crime I've come to understand what makes him react the way he doe
ClaraThere are times when you sit down and take stock of your life, and play back events you wish you could have changed ... But then again when you look back; you realise that everything that has happened to you good or bad was meant to happen to help you learn,grow, and evolve.We sometimes need to train ourselves to see the beauty in every situation and appreciate the gift it has to offer . There is always a lesson to be learned in the way someone treats you or whatever curve ball life throws at you .You ultimately learn how to be resilient and swerve around the curve balls thrown at you .I've always said that if you give things time and look at them from a different perspective, you not only see the fruit for the tree but you understand how the tree evolved from being a seed to producing fruit. No mater how much bad fruit a tree can bare. There is always good fruit to be found.Ca
BrentFor the past five days we've been in and out of the hospital with Andy the impact of the crash wasn't as bad as initially thought buy he was injured. Jen had been taken in by the cops and charges were laid . We didn't drop them even though we knew she had a kid a year younger than my son , it made no difference cause he was in Italy. Andrea on the other hand was with Clara's Mother , she is amazing in the way she raises our kids and there is always a difference in behavior. I always knew that Andy was going to find out about his brother and I had planned out how I was going to answer him but I had to tell him .Clara and I were sitting on by his bedside and he was propped up with a bandage on the side of his head and a blue cast on his leg they had shaved his hair off to cleaned and stitch him up. He had scratches that were healing on his arms. The accident resulted in a head injury and a broken leg.
BrentI've had many sleepless nights...The night I lost my mother, the night I lost Laura , the night Andrea took a turn for the worst, and the months when I thought my marriage was over , the night my wife and son were kidnapped and before that, the night I thought I had lost Clara after I lied to her and then made up only to realize she took a bullet for me .On the night Clara got shot I realized the importance of my name and influence it had .It was hard enough finding out I wasn't a Valdez but finding out that I was half Carlyle and Perelli turned my world on its head .Carl always kept to himself cause he had told me at one point that Dad thought I wasn't ready to hear everything with regards to the family but I would soon.I knew that my father was involved in stuff that was dangerous and he told me that he didn't want me to get caught
ClaraLoss, bereavement, pain and acceptance . Four words that can describe how I felt before I called it a day on my four year relationship with Carlo . As far as relationships go this one really cut me, Luke was a lesson learned... Mainly cause Carl and I had history and never in a million years had I dreamt that the one who swore forever would break my heart ... But then again nothing lasts forever , you have to keep fighting to keep your head above water ; no mater how hard you try not sink to the bottom you end up drowning if you don't get help. Endurance , stamina , will, faith and passion gets you through the hardest of times , you just need to remember you're not in this journey alone ,just when you think the "darkness" will consume you the sun will break. We all possess a supernatural power called love it's like an evergreen plant for all seasons and a power we can all tap into when all else seems hopeless or when things are just falling a
34ClaraPeople often say ;you never forget your first love , but truth be told you can never forget who taught you love , made you feel loved, experience love, make love, and give love unconditionally in return. I've always said making love has more to do than just sex .It is the combination of two energies fusing together to create life and love. I have a rule ;you have to know and trust the person you're "making love to " as much as yourself . Communication and honesty is always key . You don't learn how to speak with out words overnight or hear someone's heart without them saying a word. Loving someone unconditionally requires understand and patience .The person you want to be with should compliment and not complete you . You should be a whole being by yourself . I'm also human. I'm a woman too. I have my insecurities ; I freak out sometimes either cause I feel like I'm not thin enough,exciting
ClaraThe day told Carlo me he loved me ;was the second best day of my life . If I said first I would be lying and Brent would lose it cause in all honesty my wedding day and night was the best but above all that when I gave birth to both my children who I love to Pluto and back .So I guess it's the third most best day.When Carlo said love he meant love . He was very patient with me and I with him . What made us work at that point in time was the level of love, respect, and appreciation we had for each other . We had already communicated via mail for the first month of our relationship but all in all I thought Ally liked him but she didn't she was in love with Gio .Following our secret meetings and occasional dates, which led to me moving in temporarily with Carl and switching houses to the new one he built, we pretty much had the makings of a college couple madly in love . Except for one thing we hadn't slept together Althoug