ZaneI had a headache.That was the first thing I thought when I jumped off stage and made my way through the crowd.The second thing?I didn't want a marshmallow.Stupid that my thoughts came in that order, but my normally twitchy sweaty fingers didn't shove themselves into my jeans pocket in search of comfort.My eyes searched for her.But the crowd was stifling, nearly impossible to get through, and I knew I needed to kiss her, if I could just kiss her, the headache would go away, the nightmare would stop, and we'd celebrate recording the last two songs of the album.Together.After one kiss.Okay, maybe two.But the minute I touched her, spoke to her, bit her neck, I needed more, wanted more, the screams were making it worse, the heat.In an effort to get her away from everything.I'd pinned her to the wall.And just as I opened my mouth to confess - the headache, the possible meaning behind it - she pulled my jeans down.I should have pushed her away, confessed be
FallonI paced the floor of the penthouse suite and tried desperately not to clean up. I mean I only worked five hours that week, but it still felt habitual, to clean up the rooms rather than stay in them.Finally, out of boredom, I started folding the towels and then sat and turned on the TV.Zane still wasn't back.And I probably needed to go to my own house, the whole I'm staying over with Mags probably wasn't going to work every night this week, though I was going to at least try to sneak in one more night - the night he finished recording.I looked down at my phone and sighed.Fallon: Hey, how's the song going?Nothing.I texted again an hour later.Maybe he was just in the zone. He was an artist, I could understand how he would be in a creative process that he didn't want to jinx.The eleven o'clock news turned on."Breaking story out of Seaside Oregon, it seems like vesting celebrity Saint, has been rushed to the hospital for exhaustion, this was shortly after b
ZaneI was numb.I felt numb.Maybe it was emotional numbness, like when news hits you so hard you have no choice but to deny the fact that you have feelings - I wish."Here," Will tossed me a bag of marshmallows."No thanks." I grumbled shoving them off the bed and onto the floor, they reminded me of her, of the pain I felt at finding out that she wasn't who I thought she was.I'd given her everything.Except for one thing - the one thing that could potentially hurt her, hurt us.I refused to feel guilty for keeping one secret.The pounding in my head had died down the minute they gave me an IV of fluids, but it was still there.As was the fear that this was something bigger.Something I couldn't control."We'll get news soon," Will said in a hollow voice. "It's going to be fine, Zane. You can afford the best doctors in the world, it's not like this is the end, it's probably just exhaustion.""Great. I'm one of those. My relationship is getting splashed all over the wor
Fallon"He doesn't mean it.""He's harmless.""He's British."All the things Demetri kept repeating over and over and over again, until finally, I glared at him and shakily grabbed my phone sending Zane another text.I had no idea if he even had his phone.But I had to try.Mags was in the back of the car probably having a minor breakdown that she was with one of the members of AD2 while I was just so worried about Zane, I felt sick to my stomach.Fallon: Are you okay? Zane, I swear, I would never, ever do anything like this to you.Fallon: Zane! Please. I know I'm acting crazy, but I need to know you're okay, that you're breathing. Just, send me something. I don't care if it's mean.Fallon: I would never betray you.While sending the last text, a knock sounded on our window. It was Jaymeson, and his expression was angry. At least angry is better than sad. I could deal with angry."He's okay." I said it as a statement, hoping he'd confirm.Jay jabbed his finger at me
ZaneI should let her go.It was my new mantra, the damned sentence kept going on repeat over and over in my head until finally I just tuned it out and watched as she made a little marshmallow tower on my hospital tray."It's going to fall.""Shhh!" She placed a marshmallow on the top of the pyramid and pulled back just as it took a tumble sending the thing crashing down. "Ugh.""My turn." I rubbed my hands together. "You forget," I licked one side of the marshmallow. "It's about the lick."Her face turned bright red."I'd love to know where that little mind of yours went right now."She turned redder."That good huh?" I whispered, wishing like hell we weren't waiting for the stupid results from the surgeon to see if we were moving forward or just waiting for my little bomb to go off. I would have loved nothing more than to lock the door, pull the curtain, and devour those red lips."I can be quiet.""Hell..." I wiped down my face with my hand. "Are you seriously trying to
ZaneAn hour later, we had a rented stretch limo.With two SUV's following.Alec, Demetri, and their wives plus the baby in one, and Jay's crew in the other.Dani and Lincoln decided to ride with Jay, but I knew they were probably regretting it by now. Jay drove like a maniac and still managed to forget to drive on the right side of the road. Often. It was his thing, well that and threatening Lincoln, who was still sleeping with his wife Pricilla's sister, Dani.Fallon read all of the instructions out loud while I tried to get her to underage drink so she wouldn't stress out.She said no to wine, champagne, beer - everything.If you can't have it - I don't want it.That was Fallon though.She even handed me her chapstick for safekeeping. Ugh, I was so far gone if chapstick did it for me like a freaking promise ring or something.Her parents weren't thrilled that she was traveling with me to Portland. Then again, all she did was explain the situation. They were completely si
Fallon"I refuse to be the one who ruins his hair. Isn't it insured for like ten million dollars?" Alec wondered aloud while Demetri silenced everyone with a loud hush.After arguing for a few minutes, Demetri decided he was the most qualified to shave part of Zane's head; he referenced one time when he'd cut Alec's hair in his sleep and said it was practically the same thing, only without scissors.Every time he got close to Zane, he backed up and tried a different angle."Just do it!" Zane clenched his teeth while Demetri paled."I'll do it!" My dad offered."No!" Everyone said in unison while he shrugged, his only experience was skinning animals, I highly doubted that Zane wanted my dad's hands anywhere near his person.Demetri took a deep breath and then muttered a curse. "I can't. His hair's too silky.""Come again?" Lyss, Demetri's wife, rolled her eyes. "Did you just call his hair silky?""Oh please, like you haven't been thinking that this whole damn time!" Demetri f
ZaneA headache that felt a hell of a lot like someone had run me over with a semi-truck set up camp near my temple just above my ear. The pounding was so intense I wanted to take a hammer to my head just so it would end."Hey there, sleepy head!" The woman hovering above me winked as my blurry vision focused in on her. "The surgery went fantastic, no hiccups, though we aren't sure of any side effects until we keep you for the next week, alright?""Alright." I answered."Good!" She blinked or winked. "Your speech sounds good, why don't you tell me your name and what you do?""Zane Andrews," I frowned. "And I'm..." My brain tugged at the information like I was in a fog. "Amazing?"She burst out laughing. "Try again.""I sing." My lips moved ahead before the memory could pull. "Saint." Memories of concerts assaulted me, arriving in Seaside. "Girls throw their bras in my face, and I sign boobs for a living - I'm recording my album." Details were still fuzzy, but they were there,