Chapter 131: A Dance in The Rain

AUNT HYACINTH.

I can’t stay here for much longer, I can’t let Nikolai see me like this, I can’t let anyone see me like this. I got dressed this morning to start work and I started to bleed without warning. The pain that warms me that my bleeding is about to start, the shark pain in my chest and the stung in my nose is no longer present.

I just randomly start bleeding from my nose and the periods have become longer and longer. I fear a time might come when I’ll bleed until I pass out and die and I don’t want Nikolai to have to see that.

He’s not even healed from his mother’s death yet, seeing me bleed until I die might just be too traumatic to heal from or maybe I’m being too dramatic and Nikolai will get over my death in a few days. I still don’t want to take my chances though.

The reason I didn’t have children’s was because I didn’t want to leave them dejected and lonely and having them bear the burden of my death alone might just be too much for them. I also don’t 2ant to do to t