Chapter 15

Since the beginning, wala na akong ibang hiniling kung hindi ang magkaro'n ng maayos na pamilya kasama ang lalaking pinakamamahal ko. Wala akong ibang hiling kung hindi ang maging masaya ngunit sa uri ng sistemang pinasok ko ay pambihira ang bagay na ninanais ko. It's as if I'm passing through a needle's eye. It's difficult. No matter how hard I try, every moment is difficult.

I always tell myself at night that I will fight my love for him. I'm here. I became his wife. Why would I not fight? My title was nonsense if I surrendered him to Rose. But when this happened, I don't know anymore. I thought, I can do this 'til the end. But I'm just a person . . . a person who also knows how to get tired.

Para akong natauhan dahil lang sa pangyayaring 'yon kanina. Naaawa ako sa sarili ko. Naaawa ako dahil kahit harap-harapan ang kabastusang 'yon, nagawa ko pa ring isama si Mateo sa akin. Sa hindi ko rin malamang dahilan, sumama naman siya sa akin.

Ayaw ko nang mag-isip. I just want to spend the