Chapter 4

Reminiscing...

Nathaniel POV

I drove to June's apartment. Getting out of the car I saw a sign on the door. When I got close it wrote: 'Apartment for rent' What the fuck. Who wants to rent this out. I tore the paper on the door off. I have a spare key so I opened the door and walked in.

Everything,was gone. Her things were no where to be found. I guess her mum got it out. It only been a week and everywhere seemed deserted. I walked around touching, observing the place. Dust everywhere. It had so many memories. 

I got to her room. A mirror there which showed my shameless face.

I couldn't save the one I love. I can't believe she trusted me. How can I claim to love her,if I can't even protect her. I took a candle from the dress table and smashed the mirror. I can't look at me no more. 

Shameless.

" Fuck!!!!!" I shouted. 

" June... Why'd you have to leave me. I gave you no permission to."

I got to the rooftop of the building,it was already night time.

If I can't be with you here June. I'll meet you at the other side. 

I got to the edge of the rooftop. Looking at the height of the building,I was already feeling dizzy. A tear drop fell on my face. I can do this. This is for you...June.

Five months ago on this very rooftop.

June and I on the rooftop, washing some clothes. I currently fought with my dad,so I was staying with her for a while.

I watched her currently drying the clothes on the line. She was so beautiful. The sun shun on her bringing out her beauty even more. She looks at me staring.

" Baby.." She called.

" Yes?" I answered.

" What's your dream?" She asked me drying some more clothes.

" Dreams? There's no such thing. I don't have such." I answer her.

Who believes in dreams anymore.

" Who doesn't have dreams? You're just too lazy to think." She said coming towards me.

" I want to get as much inheritance as I can from my old man,and live life as I want to" I dropped the cloth I was currently washing and stood up.

She got close and pulled my ear.

" Ow." I grabbed my ear faking the pain.

" You're so bad" she scolds.

I laughed at that.

Yeah I'm bad. Real bad for you.

" There was a time when my old man used to smile,now he owns so much,he only gets angry. At least I have to take some from him, maybe he'll smile once more." I told her.

We were now facing one another one feet apart.

" what about you? What's your dream?" I asked her. 

She smiled and got even closer to me.

" I..." She held my hand. We were now  inches apart.

" ...want to die one day before you." She said.

What!

" Seriously?" I pushed her hand away.

" Do you really have to say that?" 

She held my hand again.

" Even when my hair turns Grey, I want to hold your hand." She said,smiling.

"...go grocery shopping,watch movies,hug you when I'm cold so you'll warm me up and fight with you." She laughed dreamingly.

She's crazy.

That's why you love her.

"...Babe. I wanna have a daughter. I'm sure her eyes will be beautiful cause she'll have yours. She'll be so cute."

" That's not difficult." I said. Smirking at her.

" Really?" She asked and jumped excited.

" Then are we going do it?" She let a sly smile.

Yeah. We've never had unprotected sex.

And if it a baby she wants, a baby she gets.

" Sure,why not?" I replied.

" I'll just have to get old " I said.

She jumps again.

So childish. It why I love her.

I spun her around,hugging her from behind. I kept my head on her shoulder. I love her smell. It smelled like mint with strawberries.

My love.

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Memories that flooded through my mind held me a bit. I took a look down at the height of the building once more.

I'm going to do it.

Closing my eyes,I was ready to jump,but I couldn't move. I tried again and again.

I moved away from the edge. I can't do this. I got scared.

Shit. I almost died! 

"June! I'm so sorry. I'm being a coward right now!" I shouted crying hard this time. 

" I'm sorry!!" I said. It not that easy.

Why punish me!

June why?!

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Elizabeth POV

I got home at 9:00 pm. Work was exhausting. I drove into my parking spot and got out of my car. Was about entering my house when a voice stopped me.

" You just coming now?" Nathaniel asked me.

What's he doing here?

I saw him at the front of my door.

Was he waiting for me? He looks sad.

I ignored him and got into my house.

I can't deal with him right now. 

But.

But nothing. I ain't pitying him. 

I fought with my conscience.

He'll catch a cold.

Fuck it.

I opened the door:

" What are you doing here? You getting on my nerves." I snapped at him. But he just smiled.

" and you were bragging about yourself before. Look at you now. Why are you here?" I asked.

He smiled.

" You're my only friend." He said.

But that was highschool.....

"Come in would ya." I said going into my house. 

" Don't think I'm doing this for you. Apparently we have to make this marriage thing work. So I have to be nice. Don't expect this all the time." He got in.

He walked around touching my work.

I'm an artist...technically I paint for peace of mind. It my hobby. I hung many of my works around my house.

" You still paint?" He asked. 

I was currently in my apron preparing to get a paint done. 

" Yes...so?" I snapped not looking at him.

He touches one of the painting.

" What does this mean?" He asked.

Art is meant to be anything. It doesn't always have to have a meaning.

" I don't know." I said nonchalantly. 

Why hasn't he left yet?

" Then why draw something you don't know?" He asked me seating at my front while I paint.

" Because I don't have to think about anything else while I draw." I told him

" That's good. " he said and then he stood up walking around again.

" Wow." He said admiring my work.

Leave already. 

He eventually got to a couch in front of me and crashed on it. 

" What can I do? How can there be no one I can go to?" He said.

How sad is this guy?

I roll my eyes at the process of that thought.

"...My life is really empty." He continued. He was facing the ceiling now. He used his left hand to support his head. 

" At least, now you know." I replied.

I know that was rude. But I can't lie to this guy. And I don't do nice.

" Are you really going to marry me?" He asked me. 

I met his gaze as he stood up seating down now. 

" If I get kicked out from home with no money,and have to live off you. Would you still marry me?" He asked.

I was shocked at that question.

Yes I would.

" Do you remember when we were in school? Although we wanted to eat junk food and travel to places,our driver was always standing in front of the school gates," I said.

" Did we skip school and run away?" He asked.

" Yes, that was a lot of fun." I smiled remembering those days.

" But...that was only for a short while. Because it was painful going back home." I said and I dropped my brush.

" I spent all my money,so I wouldn't have to take the bus and when I was popping blisters on my feet at home,I decided never to do that again." I said reminiscing those painful memories.

" Not Nathaniel of king empire, but simply just you?" I asked his question again.

" Well...your not attractive. " I said getting back to my painting.

He only smiled.

" Yup, that's just like the Elizabeth I know." He replied.

He lies back on the couch.

" Why is living so not fun?" He asked.

" What's the point?." He asked again.

I didn't respond I only looked at his direction. When I didn't hear him talk.

I moved closer and saw he had fallen asleep. I got back to my painting and I realized I was already painting him. I looked at him and smiled and continued.

He looks so cute.

Wait! 

I stood up once again and got closer to him.

" Nate? Nate? Why are you like this? Nate!? Wake up! Come to your senses. Nate!" I called out. He wasn't responding.

He's not breathing.

Shit!

" Yeah. I have an emergency. Please come quick." I called in a doctor.

This was why he was suddenly nice again. He wanted to die. This was why he asked all those questions. He was planning to die.

Well not in my house you can't. And you can't leave me.

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Jesse POV.

" That useless bastard. A bastard that doesn't even have the courage to die, take drugs?!"  Mr King asked.

I got a call from miss Elizabeth about what happened to Nathaniel. She told me he's alright now. But I had to tell his dad. I know he's going to probably punish me for this but I had no choice. I was scared for him.

He might not know I'm his friend, no matter how rude he can get. I'll still stand by him. He gave me a job when I really needed it.

" ...like there's nothing else to imitate. Doing something his mother did. " MR king completes.

" we've persuaded the hospital to be quiet about it." I said to him.

Nothing matters to Mr king than his image. And the fact that his son almost died with the use of drugs can spoil his image. So I bribed the hospital that took care of him.

" What about the media?" He asked.

" We announced he was over worked from overseas resort business. If the gossip websites circulated,it was a suicidal attempt we could've been hit hard." I informed.

" Since your best friend daughter miss Elizabeth did a good job hiding it,it shouldn't become a big issue." I added.

" As the only son I have....He's nothing but trouble." Mr king took a breath.

" so...all he needs is a good rest right?" He asked me.

" Yes sir." I answered.

" Good job." He said to me. 

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Elizabeth POV

I sat beside the bed side of the VIP hospital room. Staring at Nathan, He's sleeping peacefully. Why on earth would he think of taking his own life.

Deep in thought I didn't realize when his mum walked in.

" My dear " she called out.

I looked at her. 

" Don't worry dear the worse is over now." She said seating next to me.

I didn't respond I just kept my gaze at Nathan.

" Were you very shocked?" She asked me.

" No...I'm angry." I answer her.

" When you're sad,cry,when you happy,laugh,is it that hard? You and Nathan have have a lot of similarities,do you know that? " she asked.

I turn my gaze to her now.

" Miranda...do you know how she died?" She continued.

Miranda...was Nathan's mum. I remember.

"...They said it was an accident. But it was really...." She stops.

" Think about how Nathaniel must have felt, then." She continued.

" Bastard...to die In front of me,is that why he came to me?" I asked the sleeping body.

" Lizzy dear..in front of the man you want to get, it useless to be uppity. Getting a man's heart...is easy." I looked at her.

What's she saying?

" ...fill the hole when there is one. Roses when they're selling them,they tear off all the thorns..." She continued.

Can she read me?

" You might have been like that, madam, but I don't want to stoop that low." I attacked her.

She must have made her way into the house somehow after Miranda died.

I know I can never replace June in his heart. But I will wait till his willing to come to me. This marriage may be of help. But I won't force my way into his heart like she did to his dad. 

I glared at her before leaving the room.

I couldn't look at her anymore. I left before she reacted.

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Nathaniel POV

In pain, darkness was around me. And then I saw my mom.

" Mother...mother...mother." I called but she wasn't walking towards me,she was leaving me?

" Nathaniel are you okay?" I hear a faint familiar voice.

" Nathaniel?!" It called again,only this time it was clear.

I opened my eyes and she was there. 

Why the fuck is she in my room? 

Wait this doesn't look like my room. 

I look around, it seems like I was in a hospital.

She walks up to me.

" Oh my Gosh...you okay?" She came even closer.

Bitch!

She sat on the side of my bed. Why do I feel weak? 

" That's right,it's me mother. Are you coming to your senses." She said smiling, then she touched my right cheek with her hand.

"Please just...get out." I said weakly.

I would've have shouted at her but I was too weak.

Her smile fades away by what I said.

" I'll call your father and be right back." She said as her smile came back on her face. She leaves the room.

Fuck! This pain.

I felt a sharp pain in my chest. Maybe I shouldn't have taken those drugs.

My phone ringtone played from the side of the bed,just then Elizabeth walked in.

" Hello." I picked the call.

" it that woman for sure right?" Jesse confirmed it for the second time that it was that substitute driver.

I removed the needle which pierce through my skin and decided to get out of bed.

" Nate? " she had a questioning look on her face. 

" Nathaniel stop you haven't recovered yet. " she tries to push me back on the bed.

" Don't mind me!" I pushed her away.

She pushes me back on the bed.

Why the heck was I weak?!

" Then make it so I don't mind you" she pushes me back as I tried getting back up.

" Don't be coming to me getting all emotional because of her!" She yelled.

Now's not the time. Fuck!

" Mind your own business." I pushed her hard this time and she fell.

She stood up once more. Holding me. Struggling for my freedom, I felt a sting on my face. And then I landed back on the bed. 

She fucking slapped me.

" You can't come to your senses? After I worked hard to save you,you trying to collapse in front of me?" She shouted.

I looked up and saw she had tears in her eyes but she was holding it in.

I just let out a small frustrating chuckle. She looked surprised at that.

" I've come to my senses." I said as I smiled this time.

" Thank you, Elizabeth. Thanks for saving me. But I got something to do." I stood up and started unbuttoning the hospital clothes I was in.

She saw what I was doing and then she turned away. Her back facing me.

I sighted my clothes at the other side of the bed. I got there and pulled off the one I was wearing and got dressed. 

Still kinda dizzy I left the room. But before that I gave her one last look and walked out.

I've got a business to attend to.

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Chapter 4✔